Hi friends.
It's currently 10pm on a Saturday night and I am writing this post since I finally have the time. I put the kids to bed two hours ago (not mine, relax) and finished cleaning up the dishes and wiping down the messy pizza counter.
Babysitting on a Saturday night the weekend before spring break isn't exactly the way I saw my plans going, but hey, the kids are adorable AND I get paid. We could all use a little more cash money.
Tomorrow will be the first of March and this next Friday I will be turning twenty years old.
Twenty, man. Two zero. That's fucking nuts.
Needless to say, I'm a little brain-scrambled considering this is my last full week as a teenager. God, even writing that makes me want to puke. I know life is all about living in the present and not dwelling on the past and enjoying every moment blablabla but it's terrifying to think twenty whole years of my life will have gone by.
On the one hand, I'm impressed. Not too long ago, Maya thought she wouldn't make it past eighteen. And here she is completing two decades of life. Wild. On the other hand, what the hell does one do when they're twenty? Do you magically learn how to file taxes? Do you take out a mortgage? Are you stuck with the same job for years or are you stuck in your parent's apartment for eternity? I know nobody ever really has it all figured out but like, I don't even know how to drive yet. Most kids my little brother's age are learning how to drive and sometimes I just feel kinda inadequate. Eh, I'll learn eventually.
February was kind of a trash month for everyone I know. Mercury in retrograde or whatever. Bad juju in the air. Fukú and whatnot. Anyhow, I'm hoping that since February has come to an end, March will provide a clean slate and restore balance to us all. It had better for me at least. It's my birthday month, after all.
Second week of break, the Owls and I are headed on tour to Chicago which will definitely merit a whole post of its own. I haven't been there since I was ten years old, man. It's been a while.
After coming back from break, we'll only have six weeks of school left. That's it. Six weeks and I will have finished my first whole year of college. Another feat I never thought I'd get to see. Then summer, then sophomore year. Insane.
I'm a little nervous because I don't have any summer jobs lined up yet for a number of reasons but I'm hopeful I'll make something work. I'm likeable and skilled enough, I suppose.
The room I'm currently sat in is freezing yet surprisingly cozy. I just wish I could smuggle a blanket in somewhere...
I know I talk about this a fuckton but I just have so many projects I want to work on and create. I just have to find the energy and motivation from somewhere first. It's getting there. At least I forced myself to write this post. Forcing myself to write at least makes me feel like I'm doing something.
In any case, my friends are wonderful and I love them so incredibly much because they put up with me even when I'm trash and am a little shit :) Y'all are the best, babes :*
There was no real point to this post other than explaining that I've had a pretty long four weeks and I'm looking forward to the next four. Yeah. I think that's it.
Hasta la próxima,
Much love xoxo
Maya
P.S: MY PHONE CAMERA STARTED WORKING AGAIN AND I AM OVER THE MOON ABOUT IT I JUST KEEP TAKING PICTURES OF RANDOM SHIT YALL IT'S GREAT
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Saturday, February 29, 2020
Wednesday, December 25, 2019
Turkey Day List #2
Quick lil note: I am the worst at turning things in on time, even things like this. So bear with me pls. Pretend I posted this a whole month ago, cool thanks.
You know how this goes.
Mami & Papi: Change is inevitable. We are always growing, always learning, always evolving. It is not easy. I am proud of you. I love you both. With every fiber of my being. Please don't give up on yourselves. You have so much more to do. It is so close! You are so close! Sí se puede!
Yan Diego: I heckin worry about you sometimes, you piece of shit. Thanks for not being an asshole to me 100% of the time and also I think you're super talented and amazing and I brag about you every chance I get oops.
Javi: Dude you need to stop growing, it's kinda gross. Also please move to this side of the planet. We miss you so much it hurts sometimes.
Natasha: Life works in mysterious ways and even though the leadup kinda sucked ass, I'm glad the universe brought you to live with us. It's been such a blessing having you around and I don't think we could have gotten through the past six months without you <3
Suki: Mi amor bella y preciosa! No te apures, que ya ahorita llegamos a verte!
Nutella: Sigue haciendo tu cosa, nena.
Cinnamon: I hope you are enjoying your many naps on Grandma's lap, sweet girl.
Phoenix Emilio Salem Cruz: Natasha knew immediately that she was gonna take you home. How could she not? You fluffy black ball of fur, you. You've turned her into the wackiest cat mom out there, good job ;)
Sansa Scout Westley Wilson: You crazy, possessed demon, how I love you. I can't wait to get back to Vermont so I can force you to love me (even though you already do <3)
Abuelo & Bianelly: Son mis ídolos y le pido a Dios que puedan mudarse a la Florida seguramente.
Abuela: Sé que no siempre te entiendo pero mi mayor deseo es que jamás dudes cuanto te amo. Eres tan amada. Más que crees.
Grandma & Grandpa: I miss you guys so much and am super ready to see you guys at YD's graduation. It's been too long.
The Wilson-Fishers: Ditto.
Tío John & Gaby: You guys inspire me every day.
Joel, Melissa, Luis, & Noah: I'm so happy you guys are in my life, you don't even know. We have to make up for lost time but that shouldn't take us long :) I love you ALL to infinity and beyond!!!
Pri & Ana: My oldest friends. Las quiero more than you'll ever know.
Newsies Yamily: You pulled me out of the void when I needed it most. I Never Planned on No One Like You.
CJ & Nat: You two are the best thing that ever came from Newsies. Thank you for letting me be a part of your life <3
My grown-up babes, Lauryn, Kelila, Soren, Riley, Megan, Jay, Emma, & Julia, and my even older babes, Amanda, Caellum, Fonts, Mike, Claire, Thom, Sophia, Brandt, Tiernan, & Maeve: Everything I am today is because of every single one of you. I am so proud of and so thankful to each of you. I love you I love you I love you.
Jessica: You lunatic. I am SO lucky Vassar decided to pair me with you. I can't imagine myself with any other roommate. You make living with another person so easy (seeing as we're basically the same person in all the horrible ways) and coming home to you at the end of the day makes my heart happy <3 Here's to another semester of corndog eating and wine sipping and cliche movie bashing.
Charlotte & Leila: I'M SO GLAD WE'RE HALL NEIGHBORS LIKE I'M VERY HAPPY YOUR ROOM IS TWO FEET AWAY FROM OURS AND THAT WE CAN GO ON FUN MIDNIGHT ADVENTURES TOGETHER WE MUST DO THAT MORE OFTEN KAY THANKS LOVE YOU
Miles, Garret, Robin, & Sarah: I couldn't ask for a sweeter group of hallmates. You guys have my back, always.
Gabby: MOMMMMMM you are truly the best mom and I am convinced we are the best fellow group. Case closed.
Chloe: Hey thanks for being the coolest drama mentor EVER ;) I'm amazed at how you and I are so alike and how it's taken us this long to notice. I appreciate every moment I have with you, babe.
Linnea: You're a nut and I love you way more than eleven goat. More like eleven alpaca, cuz I feel like alpacas could kick a goat's ass.
The other Beats Suite members, Martin, Juliana, Ranza, Graham (& Jack): Thanks for letting me invade your space and for letting me love you unconditionally even though you sometimes have entire conversations with sounds and not real words and it makes me want to rip my head off :)
The Martins: Thanks for adopting me and for babysitting Saoirse and Soraya for me while I'm away <3
Evan: 'Sup loser. Thanks for picking me up from dates I don't want to be at and for bringing me food and watching drug-related shows with me and for not getting killed in Jiu-Jitsu.
Tessa: My dearest Tessa, you absolute goofball, I am so happy to know you and to be in your life. I look forward to so many more late-night chats and Saturday brunches. We'll have a grand old time.
Madison: Oh dear god, I couldn't be happier to know we're in Owls together at the same time in this universe. I couldn't bear missing a single one of your snarky remarks or witty banter. Keep unpacking, the world needs more of that.
Emma: Owls couldn't have ended up with a better pitch. You lead with such compassion and hard work and care. You help us all create seriously beautiful music and still manage to keep us laughing. We are all thankful for you, babe.
Sam: My darling Sammy, no one in this entire world has a heart bigger than yours. Whether you know it or not, you've brightened so many lives with your smile and your dino and your kind words. Please don't ever leave my life; I'd be lost without you.
Sabrina: Thank you for living your best, powerful life every second of every day. I have no doubt in my mind that you would do anything for any of your fellow owls—your loyalty is truly admirable. You are the living definition of Big Dick Energy. Also please connect me to the gay world I'm so scared kay thanks <3
Ariana: You are quite frankly (and I do not say this lightly) the FUNNIEST person I have ever met. Whether you mean to or not, your timing is always impeccable and I've had to stop myself from peeing at your jokes on several occasions. Also, you are so sweet and the Peace Corps are SO lucky to have you.
Maisha: First off, goddess. Second of all, marry me. Thirdly, you are truly one of the kindest, most genuine humans I have ever had the privilege of meeting. That, and you've got a voice of pure velvet. Thank you for sharing it with us.
Elena: You absolute ray of sunshine! How I've missed you! I am beyond thrilled to have you back next semester because that means we'll all get to experience your radiant aura and the joy it brings.
Helen: I am so proud of you. Truly, you've been through some shit and yet you continue to wake up each morning and absolutely glow. Can't wait to have you back in the nest :)
Alexa: Hey lovely! I know we haven't spent much time together yet but I am SO excited to get to know you better and sing sweet, sweet music with you!
Gracie: I aspire to one day be as carefree, self-assured and talented as you are. Thanks for being a goof and 100% yourself at all times. It does not go unappreciated.
Alexandra: Hi hello I'm quite convinced you are an ethereal being not remotely from this world and you're posing as a down to earth, incredibly kind, witty human with the voice of a folky forest nymph. PS: You were the greatest Secret Snowflake ever! ILY <3
Delila: Laugh all you want but I've always been in awe of how poised and graceful and effortlessly cool you seem in every single situation. Also, ohmygod you're so weird.
Cameron: If Stevie Nicks ever had a daughter, she'd be you. You absolutely blow me away.
Eloise: You wild Aussie, you. I'm so hyped I get to spend the next four years singing with you, love!
Derek: Another year with you as my friend :)
Luke, Kota, Ben & Jared: I've learned so much from you.
Paul O'Connor: I'm in love with you, didn't you know? But also, I'm sure your girlfriend is delightful so don't mind me.
Greta Thunberg: You are so powerful. Thank you for being the voice many others don't have.
Zendaya: We've been here before. Hi, I'm your future wife.
Hunter Schafer: My newest, queerest obsession. Everything about you. I love you so much.
Eva Noblezada: No one has ever drawn me in so quickly.
Lauren, Maria, Emma, TingTing, Darya, Gibi, Sarah, Grace, Mads, Erin, Chiara, Abby, Bekah, Jojo, & Caroline: My sweet angels of sleep, how I love you.
The Weinreichs: The things you've done for my family I could never repay.
Madrina: I could not afford my school books otherwise. I miss you all so very much.
Barbara: Thank you for keeping my head intact.
Titi: I see you everywhere. Thank you for not disappearing on me. Te quiero.
I am so blessed.
Hasta la próxima,
Much love xoxo
Maya
You know how this goes.
Mami & Papi: Change is inevitable. We are always growing, always learning, always evolving. It is not easy. I am proud of you. I love you both. With every fiber of my being. Please don't give up on yourselves. You have so much more to do. It is so close! You are so close! Sí se puede!
Yan Diego: I heckin worry about you sometimes, you piece of shit. Thanks for not being an asshole to me 100% of the time and also I think you're super talented and amazing and I brag about you every chance I get oops.
Javi: Dude you need to stop growing, it's kinda gross. Also please move to this side of the planet. We miss you so much it hurts sometimes.
Natasha: Life works in mysterious ways and even though the leadup kinda sucked ass, I'm glad the universe brought you to live with us. It's been such a blessing having you around and I don't think we could have gotten through the past six months without you <3
Suki: Mi amor bella y preciosa! No te apures, que ya ahorita llegamos a verte!
Nutella: Sigue haciendo tu cosa, nena.
Cinnamon: I hope you are enjoying your many naps on Grandma's lap, sweet girl.
Phoenix Emilio Salem Cruz: Natasha knew immediately that she was gonna take you home. How could she not? You fluffy black ball of fur, you. You've turned her into the wackiest cat mom out there, good job ;)
Sansa Scout Westley Wilson: You crazy, possessed demon, how I love you. I can't wait to get back to Vermont so I can force you to love me (even though you already do <3)
Abuelo & Bianelly: Son mis ídolos y le pido a Dios que puedan mudarse a la Florida seguramente.
Abuela: Sé que no siempre te entiendo pero mi mayor deseo es que jamás dudes cuanto te amo. Eres tan amada. Más que crees.
Grandma & Grandpa: I miss you guys so much and am super ready to see you guys at YD's graduation. It's been too long.
The Wilson-Fishers: Ditto.
Tío John & Gaby: You guys inspire me every day.
Joel, Melissa, Luis, & Noah: I'm so happy you guys are in my life, you don't even know. We have to make up for lost time but that shouldn't take us long :) I love you ALL to infinity and beyond!!!
Pri & Ana: My oldest friends. Las quiero more than you'll ever know.
Newsies Yamily: You pulled me out of the void when I needed it most. I Never Planned on No One Like You.
CJ & Nat: You two are the best thing that ever came from Newsies. Thank you for letting me be a part of your life <3
My grown-up babes, Lauryn, Kelila, Soren, Riley, Megan, Jay, Emma, & Julia, and my even older babes, Amanda, Caellum, Fonts, Mike, Claire, Thom, Sophia, Brandt, Tiernan, & Maeve: Everything I am today is because of every single one of you. I am so proud of and so thankful to each of you. I love you I love you I love you.
Jessica: You lunatic. I am SO lucky Vassar decided to pair me with you. I can't imagine myself with any other roommate. You make living with another person so easy (seeing as we're basically the same person in all the horrible ways) and coming home to you at the end of the day makes my heart happy <3 Here's to another semester of corndog eating and wine sipping and cliche movie bashing.
Charlotte & Leila: I'M SO GLAD WE'RE HALL NEIGHBORS LIKE I'M VERY HAPPY YOUR ROOM IS TWO FEET AWAY FROM OURS AND THAT WE CAN GO ON FUN MIDNIGHT ADVENTURES TOGETHER WE MUST DO THAT MORE OFTEN KAY THANKS LOVE YOU
Miles, Garret, Robin, & Sarah: I couldn't ask for a sweeter group of hallmates. You guys have my back, always.
Gabby: MOMMMMMM you are truly the best mom and I am convinced we are the best fellow group. Case closed.
Chloe: Hey thanks for being the coolest drama mentor EVER ;) I'm amazed at how you and I are so alike and how it's taken us this long to notice. I appreciate every moment I have with you, babe.
Linnea: You're a nut and I love you way more than eleven goat. More like eleven alpaca, cuz I feel like alpacas could kick a goat's ass.
The other Beats Suite members, Martin, Juliana, Ranza, Graham (& Jack): Thanks for letting me invade your space and for letting me love you unconditionally even though you sometimes have entire conversations with sounds and not real words and it makes me want to rip my head off :)
The Martins: Thanks for adopting me and for babysitting Saoirse and Soraya for me while I'm away <3
Evan: 'Sup loser. Thanks for picking me up from dates I don't want to be at and for bringing me food and watching drug-related shows with me and for not getting killed in Jiu-Jitsu.
Tessa: My dearest Tessa, you absolute goofball, I am so happy to know you and to be in your life. I look forward to so many more late-night chats and Saturday brunches. We'll have a grand old time.
Madison: Oh dear god, I couldn't be happier to know we're in Owls together at the same time in this universe. I couldn't bear missing a single one of your snarky remarks or witty banter. Keep unpacking, the world needs more of that.
Emma: Owls couldn't have ended up with a better pitch. You lead with such compassion and hard work and care. You help us all create seriously beautiful music and still manage to keep us laughing. We are all thankful for you, babe.
Sam: My darling Sammy, no one in this entire world has a heart bigger than yours. Whether you know it or not, you've brightened so many lives with your smile and your dino and your kind words. Please don't ever leave my life; I'd be lost without you.
Sabrina: Thank you for living your best, powerful life every second of every day. I have no doubt in my mind that you would do anything for any of your fellow owls—your loyalty is truly admirable. You are the living definition of Big Dick Energy. Also please connect me to the gay world I'm so scared kay thanks <3
Ariana: You are quite frankly (and I do not say this lightly) the FUNNIEST person I have ever met. Whether you mean to or not, your timing is always impeccable and I've had to stop myself from peeing at your jokes on several occasions. Also, you are so sweet and the Peace Corps are SO lucky to have you.
Maisha: First off, goddess. Second of all, marry me. Thirdly, you are truly one of the kindest, most genuine humans I have ever had the privilege of meeting. That, and you've got a voice of pure velvet. Thank you for sharing it with us.
Elena: You absolute ray of sunshine! How I've missed you! I am beyond thrilled to have you back next semester because that means we'll all get to experience your radiant aura and the joy it brings.
Helen: I am so proud of you. Truly, you've been through some shit and yet you continue to wake up each morning and absolutely glow. Can't wait to have you back in the nest :)
Alexa: Hey lovely! I know we haven't spent much time together yet but I am SO excited to get to know you better and sing sweet, sweet music with you!
Gracie: I aspire to one day be as carefree, self-assured and talented as you are. Thanks for being a goof and 100% yourself at all times. It does not go unappreciated.
Alexandra: Hi hello I'm quite convinced you are an ethereal being not remotely from this world and you're posing as a down to earth, incredibly kind, witty human with the voice of a folky forest nymph. PS: You were the greatest Secret Snowflake ever! ILY <3
Delila: Laugh all you want but I've always been in awe of how poised and graceful and effortlessly cool you seem in every single situation. Also, ohmygod you're so weird.
Cameron: If Stevie Nicks ever had a daughter, she'd be you. You absolutely blow me away.
Eloise: You wild Aussie, you. I'm so hyped I get to spend the next four years singing with you, love!
Derek: Another year with you as my friend :)
Luke, Kota, Ben & Jared: I've learned so much from you.
Paul O'Connor: I'm in love with you, didn't you know? But also, I'm sure your girlfriend is delightful so don't mind me.
Greta Thunberg: You are so powerful. Thank you for being the voice many others don't have.
Zendaya: We've been here before. Hi, I'm your future wife.
Hunter Schafer: My newest, queerest obsession. Everything about you. I love you so much.
Eva Noblezada: No one has ever drawn me in so quickly.
Lauren, Maria, Emma, TingTing, Darya, Gibi, Sarah, Grace, Mads, Erin, Chiara, Abby, Bekah, Jojo, & Caroline: My sweet angels of sleep, how I love you.
The Weinreichs: The things you've done for my family I could never repay.
Madrina: I could not afford my school books otherwise. I miss you all so very much.
Barbara: Thank you for keeping my head intact.
Titi: I see you everywhere. Thank you for not disappearing on me. Te quiero.
I am so blessed.
Hasta la próxima,
Much love xoxo
Maya
Thursday, November 22, 2018
Turkey Day List #2
Hello my loves.
This list always proves difficult to write. Not because it's hard to come up with people I'm grateful for, but because it always ends with me getting rather emotional and... I dunno. Nostalgic, maybe? Either way, Thanksgiving posts have always been my favorite to write because I finally get to pay homage to the people and things that make everything infinitely better. I owe you my life.
Firstly to my angel, Titi Dorianny:
My dearest Titi... I dedicate the rest of my life to you. You are the single sweetest, funniest, smartest, humblest, most generous, most loving, most giving person I have ever known. That is no exaggeration. Though I'm still tortured by you leaving us so soon, your spirit survives in your husband's voice, in your son's eyes, in every latin song that comes on the radio; in knitted scarves and real smiles; galleticas de miel and blue skies. We will love you forever, as you have loved us. Te quiero, te adoro, te amo.
Mami: I love you. I hope you always know that. I hope someday we can be closer again.
YD: You're pretty dope. This year you called me one of your best friends and I will never let you live that down. Love ya, pal.
Javi: So apparently this is the year you became taller than me or something??? Sounds fake but ok...
Tio John: You are such a vessel of strength and unconditional love. I admire you more than you know and I'm glad we will always be family <3
Natasha: It's really cool that we're both in New York now and our age gap doesn't matter as much haha You must be relieved you don't have to babysit me anymore (we all know how hyper I used to be) and instead we can enjoy deep talks and binging Netflix shows. Thanks for always being there.
Gaby: Oh Gaby... I freaking wish I could hug you. You astound me everyday with your resilience and brilliance. Truly. I've always said you'd be the next Einstein but now I'm thinking you'll be even more than that. You have such a beautiful soul and your parents have every reason to be proud.
Abuelo & Bianelly: Admiro tanto su amor. Espero algún día tener un amor así de fuerte.
Abuela: De verdad que te amo. Siempre lo haré.
Grandma & Grandpa: I miss you so much and I hope you guys are staying warm!
Tia Susan: I am purely convinced that you are my guardian angel.
Ali: Thank you for always being the sister I never had. I think our relationship is only gonna get better from here on out :)
Bob & Max: Regardless of whether you like having me around, y'all are such homies and I love youuuuu.
Suki: Muchachita de la porra I miss you so heckin much. Also, are you sure you're not part turkey?
Nutella: Niña bella, deja a la vieja tranquila XD
Cami: My dearest Cambria, can't wait to give you snuggles again ahhhhhhhh you're so fluffy I could die.
Luna: My darling creature, we haven't met yet but I'm your Tia and I LOVE YOU LIKE HECK.
Bernie & Phyllis: You little fuckers, I love you so much. Behave yourselves.
Future kitty: Hi there! Soy tu Mamá and I already love you with my whole heart! Stay warm until I get to hold you in my arms, yeah?
My exes: thank u, next :*
Pri: Chica, ven visítame porfaaaaaaa
Evan: Boiiiiiiiiiii, hello hi let's get ice cream and watch Narcos and go on a spooky scary midnight adventure and be besties again :)
Linnea: My love, I hope you know how much I love you with every fiber of my being. I would do anything for you and if someone hurts you, you best believe I will fuck. them. up. Now let's get together and take stunning pictures of each other <3
The Martins: If it wasn't already obvious, you guys are practically my second family and I love you to death and basically when can I move in?
The Night Owls: Your child misses you!!!
The Riders: You know how much you've done for me. I can never repay you.
Lauryn & Kelila: Hey babes, just wanted to say you're literally two of the bestest friends I've ever had and I live for our groupchat. I would do anything for either of you and I hope we get to see each other and be hoes together soon <3
Derek: It's sorta awesome having someone you've never met in person to count on. I gotchu fam.
Amanda: We vibe so hard together. I care about you immensely and your hugs are truly some of the best known to mankind.
Riley: You've grown so so so much from when I first met you and I can't even express how proud I am.You are going to do amazing things in this world, I know it.
Megan: My fave wife, please come visit me so we can have snuggles and excitement!!!
Soren: My precious child, holy heck am I proud of you. You better not forget about me when you're rich and famous and the most sought after celebrity of all time.
Julia: The Abbey can be tough but you are tougher. Even when you don't feel like it. Do not let it defeat you. I am here to support you always.
Caellum: I won't give up on you. No matter how many times you don't answer my damn texts, you fucker. Love you.
Emma: Babygirl, you were my first ever little sister and it pains me to even think that you're not so little anymore. You've grown so much and my heart aches to see you again. I love you I love you I love you.
Fonts: I think the fact that you've finally graduated college has automatically transitioned you into dad-hood and now you can't help but pick up the phone when I call at three in the morning :) You are seriously the best, thank you, I love you.
Mike, T & Thom: Forever and always my big brothers. I owe a lot to you.
Claire, Maeve & Sophia: Wish I could get us all together and have a ball. What a time that would be.
Aidan: Whoa whoa whoa I kinda really super duper like you, is that weird??? You're brilliant and kind and passionate and inspiring and hilarious and gorgeous so um can you stop being so perfect please? Thanks. Also, I miss you monkey.
Cast of Hadestown: Um so can you maybe leave a little talent to the rest of us please and thank you?
Emma Gonzalez: When I grow up, I wanna be just like you.
Dr. Ford: Your courage, eloquence and determination do not go unnoticed. Thank you.
Trevor Noah: Thank you for articulating such important issues and bringing them to the public. There's no place for them to hide anymore.
Michelle Obama: Please adopt me or become president or both?
All the Women Elected for Congress: LET'S FUCK IT UP LADIES
Frivvi, Maria & Emma: I owe countless restful nights to you three. What angels you are.
Alicia Keys: Always an icon. Always an inspiration.
Eddie Redmayne: You are a literal cinnamon roll. If you weren't 36 that'd be cool.
Zendaya: Marry me?
Donald Glover: You have my endless praise.
Lady Sybil: Please come back to life you were literally my favorite character and I aspire to be half the woman you were.
Tom Holland: I've already signed the adoption papers now pls come home
Barack Obama: I miss you.
Amandla Stenberg: Keep waking the people up like you do.
Noah Centineo: Hi so you don't know this yet but we're getting married and having like a thousand babies and they better all be like you I don't think I've ever crushed on anyone this fucking hard in a long ass time so pay up my dude
Willow Smith: You come from a long line of strong, brave women and you are no exception.
Billie Eilish: I can't even comprehend how someone so young already possesses the skill level that you do. Not only are you astronomically talented, but you have one of the most beautiful minds. I'm sorry it's tortured at times. I hope you make it out okay.
Ariana Grande: Woman of the Year is such an understatement. You deserve global recognition for your outstanding resilience in the past year. You crawled into hell and back and are STILL kickin'. Words can't even express how much I admire you.
Brockhampton: It's wild how fucking poetic y'all are. It's inspiring.
Lady Gaga: Perhaps the boldest most empowering woman I grew up admiring. Such talent and confidence and grace... I bow down to you, Lady.
Lin Manuel: You're still my babe :*
Bibi: Quite possibly the best I've ever had. Thank you for all that you do.
This list always proves difficult to write. Not because it's hard to come up with people I'm grateful for, but because it always ends with me getting rather emotional and... I dunno. Nostalgic, maybe? Either way, Thanksgiving posts have always been my favorite to write because I finally get to pay homage to the people and things that make everything infinitely better. I owe you my life.
Firstly to my angel, Titi Dorianny:
My dearest Titi... I dedicate the rest of my life to you. You are the single sweetest, funniest, smartest, humblest, most generous, most loving, most giving person I have ever known. That is no exaggeration. Though I'm still tortured by you leaving us so soon, your spirit survives in your husband's voice, in your son's eyes, in every latin song that comes on the radio; in knitted scarves and real smiles; galleticas de miel and blue skies. We will love you forever, as you have loved us. Te quiero, te adoro, te amo.
..........
Papi: It's always bizarre the moment you learn your parents aren't perfect. In this, though, I'm learning the act of forgiveness, and for that, I thank you. And for taking me in. And getting through this together.Mami: I love you. I hope you always know that. I hope someday we can be closer again.
YD: You're pretty dope. This year you called me one of your best friends and I will never let you live that down. Love ya, pal.
Javi: So apparently this is the year you became taller than me or something??? Sounds fake but ok...
Tio John: You are such a vessel of strength and unconditional love. I admire you more than you know and I'm glad we will always be family <3
Natasha: It's really cool that we're both in New York now and our age gap doesn't matter as much haha You must be relieved you don't have to babysit me anymore (we all know how hyper I used to be) and instead we can enjoy deep talks and binging Netflix shows. Thanks for always being there.
Gaby: Oh Gaby... I freaking wish I could hug you. You astound me everyday with your resilience and brilliance. Truly. I've always said you'd be the next Einstein but now I'm thinking you'll be even more than that. You have such a beautiful soul and your parents have every reason to be proud.
Abuelo & Bianelly: Admiro tanto su amor. Espero algún día tener un amor así de fuerte.
Abuela: De verdad que te amo. Siempre lo haré.
Grandma & Grandpa: I miss you so much and I hope you guys are staying warm!
Tia Susan: I am purely convinced that you are my guardian angel.
Ali: Thank you for always being the sister I never had. I think our relationship is only gonna get better from here on out :)
Bob & Max: Regardless of whether you like having me around, y'all are such homies and I love youuuuu.
Suki: Muchachita de la porra I miss you so heckin much. Also, are you sure you're not part turkey?
Nutella: Niña bella, deja a la vieja tranquila XD
Cami: My dearest Cambria, can't wait to give you snuggles again ahhhhhhhh you're so fluffy I could die.
Luna: My darling creature, we haven't met yet but I'm your Tia and I LOVE YOU LIKE HECK.
Bernie & Phyllis: You little fuckers, I love you so much. Behave yourselves.
Future kitty: Hi there! Soy tu Mamá and I already love you with my whole heart! Stay warm until I get to hold you in my arms, yeah?
My exes: thank u, next :*
Pri: Chica, ven visítame porfaaaaaaa
Evan: Boiiiiiiiiiii, hello hi let's get ice cream and watch Narcos and go on a spooky scary midnight adventure and be besties again :)
Linnea: My love, I hope you know how much I love you with every fiber of my being. I would do anything for you and if someone hurts you, you best believe I will fuck. them. up. Now let's get together and take stunning pictures of each other <3
The Martins: If it wasn't already obvious, you guys are practically my second family and I love you to death and basically when can I move in?
The Night Owls: Your child misses you!!!
The Riders: You know how much you've done for me. I can never repay you.
Lauryn & Kelila: Hey babes, just wanted to say you're literally two of the bestest friends I've ever had and I live for our groupchat. I would do anything for either of you and I hope we get to see each other and be hoes together soon <3
Derek: It's sorta awesome having someone you've never met in person to count on. I gotchu fam.
Amanda: We vibe so hard together. I care about you immensely and your hugs are truly some of the best known to mankind.
Riley: You've grown so so so much from when I first met you and I can't even express how proud I am.You are going to do amazing things in this world, I know it.
Megan: My fave wife, please come visit me so we can have snuggles and excitement!!!
Soren: My precious child, holy heck am I proud of you. You better not forget about me when you're rich and famous and the most sought after celebrity of all time.
Julia: The Abbey can be tough but you are tougher. Even when you don't feel like it. Do not let it defeat you. I am here to support you always.
Caellum: I won't give up on you. No matter how many times you don't answer my damn texts, you fucker. Love you.
Emma: Babygirl, you were my first ever little sister and it pains me to even think that you're not so little anymore. You've grown so much and my heart aches to see you again. I love you I love you I love you.
Fonts: I think the fact that you've finally graduated college has automatically transitioned you into dad-hood and now you can't help but pick up the phone when I call at three in the morning :) You are seriously the best, thank you, I love you.
Mike, T & Thom: Forever and always my big brothers. I owe a lot to you.
Claire, Maeve & Sophia: Wish I could get us all together and have a ball. What a time that would be.
Aidan: Whoa whoa whoa I kinda really super duper like you, is that weird??? You're brilliant and kind and passionate and inspiring and hilarious and gorgeous so um can you stop being so perfect please? Thanks. Also, I miss you monkey.
Cast of Hadestown: Um so can you maybe leave a little talent to the rest of us please and thank you?
Emma Gonzalez: When I grow up, I wanna be just like you.
Dr. Ford: Your courage, eloquence and determination do not go unnoticed. Thank you.
Trevor Noah: Thank you for articulating such important issues and bringing them to the public. There's no place for them to hide anymore.
Michelle Obama: Please adopt me or become president or both?
All the Women Elected for Congress: LET'S FUCK IT UP LADIES
Frivvi, Maria & Emma: I owe countless restful nights to you three. What angels you are.
Alicia Keys: Always an icon. Always an inspiration.
Eddie Redmayne: You are a literal cinnamon roll. If you weren't 36 that'd be cool.
Zendaya: Marry me?
Donald Glover: You have my endless praise.
Lady Sybil: Please come back to life you were literally my favorite character and I aspire to be half the woman you were.
Tom Holland: I've already signed the adoption papers now pls come home
Barack Obama: I miss you.
Amandla Stenberg: Keep waking the people up like you do.
Noah Centineo: Hi so you don't know this yet but we're getting married and having like a thousand babies and they better all be like you I don't think I've ever crushed on anyone this fucking hard in a long ass time so pay up my dude
Willow Smith: You come from a long line of strong, brave women and you are no exception.
Billie Eilish: I can't even comprehend how someone so young already possesses the skill level that you do. Not only are you astronomically talented, but you have one of the most beautiful minds. I'm sorry it's tortured at times. I hope you make it out okay.
Ariana Grande: Woman of the Year is such an understatement. You deserve global recognition for your outstanding resilience in the past year. You crawled into hell and back and are STILL kickin'. Words can't even express how much I admire you.
Brockhampton: It's wild how fucking poetic y'all are. It's inspiring.
Lady Gaga: Perhaps the boldest most empowering woman I grew up admiring. Such talent and confidence and grace... I bow down to you, Lady.
Lin Manuel: You're still my babe :*
Bibi: Quite possibly the best I've ever had. Thank you for all that you do.
..........
How lucky am I to have so much to be thankful for?
Hasta la próxima,
Much love xoxo
Maya
P.S: It's currently way-too-fucking-late o'clock and I have a splitting headache so I need to go to bed but I love you cornflakes mucho mucho mucho :*
P.S: It's currently way-too-fucking-late o'clock and I have a splitting headache so I need to go to bed but I love you cornflakes mucho mucho mucho :*
Sunday, November 26, 2017
Turkey Day List #2
To all the beautiful creatures in my life, this is for you.
(Casually meant to post this a few days ago, oops, my bad)
Mami & Papi: Thanks for teaching me that grown ups still have a lot of growing up to do.
YD & Javi: My precious bros, now and forever.
Suki: I'll see you soon, baby.
Grandma & Grandpa: Thanks for sending me an adorable card for every holiday season.
Abuelo y Abuela: Los quiero mucho. Gracias por toda su paciencia.
Lori & David: Without your care, I don't know where I'd be. I guess we're full circle now.
Titi Dorianny: You are the strongest person I know. Te quiero tantisimo <3
Tia Susan: You've been my savior this year, you really have.
Ali: Thanks for letting me invade your space, ily :*
Wilsons/Estrellas/Fishers: I know we don't all get along but we love each other just the same.
Kerrs/Doires/Martins: Thank you for always making me feel like a part of the family.
Pri: Chacha, eres mi numero 1. Sabes que te quiero ahora y siempre.
William: Words can't really begin to describe how thankful I am for you. Though our true origin story is somewhat laughable, what happened next was nothing less than magical. It's day 14 (but not like I'm counting) and you have made me feel more special than anyone else on this planet. It's still hard to believe you're real sometimes, but I guess I'll just have to get used to that. Thank you for your sweetness, your kindness and compassion, your loyalty, authenticity and support. Thank you for the phone calls that lasted more than five hours at a time. Thank you for your hugs, your kisses, and your spirit. Thank you for your Spotify playlists and for reading poetry to me. Thank you for the naps and the dance parties and all the fun in between. You are one of the kind, you are. Who knows where we'll take us, but I sure am having fun in the meantime <3
Michael, Natalia, Liam, Warren, & Jack: It's been so lovely meeting you and I cannot thank you enough for being apart of my William's life. I hope to see you all soon! (especially you, Natalia xx)
Fonts: You continue to be nothing but a constant source of happiness for me. Please make sure we make it to that seven year mark.
Mike: I love you, Sitka. Even though we've grown up and stuff doesn't mean I don't still need you.
Caellum: You worry me so much and yet parts of me believe we're two sides of the same coin. It'll be all right.
T: Hope you're doing swell, dad.
Thom: Thanks for being my first introduction to the world of magical substances. Your help was very much needed... *laughs hysterically whilst sweating*
Scotty P: Well now that I figured out you go to Middlebury, I guess I'm just gonna hafta visit ya soon, aren't I?
Claire: Girl, you keep slaying like you do. I've always looked up to you and you do not disappoint. Much love to you, babe <3
Emmalene: Hey, gorgeous. Thank you for making me smile even when you're down. You make it easy to be happy again.
Maeve: To be honest, I know neither of us talks all that much anymore but I am ECSTATIC for you and everything you do with your life. Yer a stunna.
Heather: Thank you for being a devoted blog reader, it means more than you know. Also thanks for listening to my endless nonsense rambles.
Sophia: Hello hi I'm still in love with you come adopt me sometime pls :*
Lauryn: Casually let me know when the cast list is out because I'm about to hop on that calendar and write the dates down, I have GOT to see you slay that stage. P.S: I love you so much, bby. You continue to be my crush <3
Kelila: You sweet creature, you. Thanks for all the smiles and the tears and the laughs. You deserve nothing but the best. Also, SCAD DON'T KNOW HOW LUCKY THEY JUST GOT, GO KILL 'EM.
Sarah: AHHHHH hello new best friend!!! Can't wait to turn up in Brooklyn with you! Sincerely, if y'all don't tie the knot, Imma be real upset. Jk jk no pressure but actually tho
Riley: I fuckin' love you, dude. I think about you every day. Go make the world a better place, you got this.
Megan: My better spouse, you are just so precious. I cannot imagine my life without you. I hope senior year isn't beating your ass like it did mine. I BELEAF IN YOU!
Emma: I know you're like a trillion feet taller than me now, but you're still my baby sister. Sophomore year sucks, and it will continue to suck, but the rest gets better. I promise. Your big sister loves you so very much. Thank you for being another reason not to die.
Amanda: Hey, I hope college hasn't stamped out your spirit, cuz babe, there's no one else like you.
Evan: Hey, loser. How's my best frand doin'? I miss you so much every single day and I casually might not ever give you your pants back :) jk I will it might just be a while ANYWHO, I kinda wanted to write you something that wasn't actually mean for once. You know. Something nice and wholesome. Don't worry, I'll go back to treating you like trash immediately after :) So. This is just to say you are hands down one of the BEST things that could have happened to me in my few short months at Vassar. Part of me feels like you're my long lost twin (which would explain why we treat each other like trash but also care about each other a whole lot lot lot). I dunno, dude, I miss our long walks and our trips to the Deece and walking back to Cushing while throwing shade at Noyes and I miss making fun of your tomato hands and I miss binging Narcos with you and Stranger Things and dropping classes every other day. I miss our fight club and our long chats in the basement and doing laundry and just idk existing in the same space. You mean more to me than you know. I know this all might just sound like sappy shit to you but I mean it. I love you, ya stinkin' banana. So much. Please don't forget about me while I'm gone. Okay. I'm done. Hope you had a fab Thanksgiving, fucker :)
Linnea: Hello, love. Can I just point out that you are the best roommate I've ever had? I know you probably don't believe me but guuuuuuuurl, I've seen some shit XD Anyway, this is just me telling you everything I've already said before—Linnea, my love, you are so beautiful, and so talented, and so fucking kind. Like I don't even think you understand. Your hugs and your smiles and your forehead kisses and your post its and your text messages and your radiance would just make my day. Thank you for all those times we stayed up late ordering Bacio's and watching Disney movies or Full House. Thank you for all the times you reminded me I needed to pee. Thank you for your Heath Bars on bad days and dance parties on good days. Thank you for dealing with all my crazy and all my emotional reck-ness. Thank you for unintentional twinning and for teaching me to do my eyebrows and for not judging me for my lack of clothing at all times. Thank you for stealing food from the Deece with me and for rants about pretty boys. You mean the world to me, darling. I cannot WAIT to see you again. You are such a shining star, and you better believe it. No one shines quite as brightly as you. I love you I love you I love you <3
Juliana: Mi amorrrrrrr, te extraño tanto!!! I can't wait to go back and just dance the night away with you again. For real though, you make everything more fun. You gotta teach me Portuguese sometime! Take care of Samira while I'm gone, she worries me sometimes XD
Prat: My duuuuude, I'm sorry we never quite got around to seeing each other as much as we wanted to but props for being one of my first friends at Vassar. I miss your hugs and our drunken endeavors. We gotta catch up on that next year, yeah?
Githu: Casually had a crush on you like the first week of school, oops? Hahaha no but for real though, you're drop dead gorgeous and you deserve to know that. Also I wish we saw each other more because whenever we hung out, it was a good time. Much love!!!
Moe: It looks like Cushing is going to see you around more than me now, huh?
Pedro: Keep doing your thing, dude. It's rad.
Anthony: Mijo, espero que te estes cuidando bien, ah? Cuando vuelva, tenemos que comenzar esas cenas españolas, okay?
Sergio: Esa noche que bailamos juntos fue un verdadero éxito. Aunque de verdad no ayudó que me acababa de tomar tres shots de tequila...
Ethan: Wow wow wow #1 best stufel EVER. Like, you have no idea how helpful you've been in the time that I spent at Vassar. I couldn't have done it without you.
The Night Owls-- I LOVE YOU (OWL) ALL!
Lily: Not gonna lie, was casually intimidated by you during auditions and callbacks but then learned how wacky and darling you were and fell absolutely in love!
Chiara: You are such a stunna. Like WOW I forget to sing my part whenever you're soloing because I lowkey become mesmerized at how talented you are but oh whaleeeee!
Imani: Thank you coming up to me at the activities fair and for asking me if I liked to sing. That's lowkey how I got it all started... I could never repay you for that <3
Bailey: Thank you for being my rock as I struggled through a helluva tough decision. Your help was so so so appreciated.
Jacqui: MAMA!!! I miss our mutual geekiness over superheroes and our sectionals and literally any time ever spent with you. I look up to you so so so much.
Haley: Sorta loved you from the first moment you opened your mouth. What can I say? That first impression did not lie.
Zoe: I will never forget the first time I heard you sing Trickle. My jaw literally dropped. You amaze me.
Olivia: I'M SORRY I HAVEN'T MET YOU YET, MAMA, BUT I CAN'T WAIT TO!
Emma: 5'2 CLUB! I feel like we have very similar souls and I am so thankful for your good vibes and good advice <3
Sam: You sometimes make me cry with how genuine you are. No lie, your hugs and authenticity give me life. And Hayden Elizabeth the Dinosaur, too.
Ariana: HEY THANKS FOR BEING MY QUEER CHAPERONE! IT WAS LIT!
Sab: That one mug night with you made me learn so much and I can't remember having a more entertaining time xx
Maisha: My darling Maisha, seeing your face in rehearsal was like saying hello to the sun.
Helen: My sweet Helen, your work snapchats were hella relatable and I lowkey miss them so much.
Elena: My dear Elena, your elegance and goofiness can be described as nothing more than high art.
The cast of Spring Awakening: To be completely honest, I'd wanted to be a part of this show since I was twelve years old. Even though I didn't end up being onstage with you, it meant the world to at least be chosen to be a part of it in the first place. Much love. (Also I'm expecting to see a recording soon please and thank you)
Las niñas de Cayacoa: No podría amar lo que estoy haciendo si no fuera por ustedes. Las quiero. Cuidanse bien, oyeron?
Barbara: Holy wow, I have never actually found someone who worked and well, you worked and so I'm sort of amazed. Wow wow wow good job universe for pairing us together and all :)
Aaron Tveit: What a beautiful man you are wow let's get married thank you
Ben Platt: So if I could have your babies, that would be nice. I just need them to sing. Jk jk thank you for showing me what performance is all about. Thank you for reminding me why I want to make it my profession.
Zoella: Once again, you never fail to make me smile. You've always been there, from the very beginning :)
Me: You've made it this far. I dare you to live a little longer.
And those are just a few of the big ones.
Hasta la próxima,
Much love xoxo
Maya
(Casually meant to post this a few days ago, oops, my bad)
..........
Mami & Papi: Thanks for teaching me that grown ups still have a lot of growing up to do.
YD & Javi: My precious bros, now and forever.
Suki: I'll see you soon, baby.
Grandma & Grandpa: Thanks for sending me an adorable card for every holiday season.
Abuelo y Abuela: Los quiero mucho. Gracias por toda su paciencia.
Lori & David: Without your care, I don't know where I'd be. I guess we're full circle now.
Titi Dorianny: You are the strongest person I know. Te quiero tantisimo <3
Tia Susan: You've been my savior this year, you really have.
Ali: Thanks for letting me invade your space, ily :*
Wilsons/Estrellas/Fishers: I know we don't all get along but we love each other just the same.
Kerrs/Doires/Martins: Thank you for always making me feel like a part of the family.
Pri: Chacha, eres mi numero 1. Sabes que te quiero ahora y siempre.
William: Words can't really begin to describe how thankful I am for you. Though our true origin story is somewhat laughable, what happened next was nothing less than magical. It's day 14 (but not like I'm counting) and you have made me feel more special than anyone else on this planet. It's still hard to believe you're real sometimes, but I guess I'll just have to get used to that. Thank you for your sweetness, your kindness and compassion, your loyalty, authenticity and support. Thank you for the phone calls that lasted more than five hours at a time. Thank you for your hugs, your kisses, and your spirit. Thank you for your Spotify playlists and for reading poetry to me. Thank you for the naps and the dance parties and all the fun in between. You are one of the kind, you are. Who knows where we'll take us, but I sure am having fun in the meantime <3
Michael, Natalia, Liam, Warren, & Jack: It's been so lovely meeting you and I cannot thank you enough for being apart of my William's life. I hope to see you all soon! (especially you, Natalia xx)
Fonts: You continue to be nothing but a constant source of happiness for me. Please make sure we make it to that seven year mark.
Mike: I love you, Sitka. Even though we've grown up and stuff doesn't mean I don't still need you.
Caellum: You worry me so much and yet parts of me believe we're two sides of the same coin. It'll be all right.
T: Hope you're doing swell, dad.
Thom: Thanks for being my first introduction to the world of magical substances. Your help was very much needed... *laughs hysterically whilst sweating*
Scotty P: Well now that I figured out you go to Middlebury, I guess I'm just gonna hafta visit ya soon, aren't I?
Claire: Girl, you keep slaying like you do. I've always looked up to you and you do not disappoint. Much love to you, babe <3
Emmalene: Hey, gorgeous. Thank you for making me smile even when you're down. You make it easy to be happy again.
Maeve: To be honest, I know neither of us talks all that much anymore but I am ECSTATIC for you and everything you do with your life. Yer a stunna.
Heather: Thank you for being a devoted blog reader, it means more than you know. Also thanks for listening to my endless nonsense rambles.
Sophia: Hello hi I'm still in love with you come adopt me sometime pls :*
Lauryn: Casually let me know when the cast list is out because I'm about to hop on that calendar and write the dates down, I have GOT to see you slay that stage. P.S: I love you so much, bby. You continue to be my crush <3
Kelila: You sweet creature, you. Thanks for all the smiles and the tears and the laughs. You deserve nothing but the best. Also, SCAD DON'T KNOW HOW LUCKY THEY JUST GOT, GO KILL 'EM.
Sarah: AHHHHH hello new best friend!!! Can't wait to turn up in Brooklyn with you! Sincerely, if y'all don't tie the knot, Imma be real upset. Jk jk no pressure but actually tho
Riley: I fuckin' love you, dude. I think about you every day. Go make the world a better place, you got this.
Megan: My better spouse, you are just so precious. I cannot imagine my life without you. I hope senior year isn't beating your ass like it did mine. I BELEAF IN YOU!
Emma: I know you're like a trillion feet taller than me now, but you're still my baby sister. Sophomore year sucks, and it will continue to suck, but the rest gets better. I promise. Your big sister loves you so very much. Thank you for being another reason not to die.
Amanda: Hey, I hope college hasn't stamped out your spirit, cuz babe, there's no one else like you.
Evan: Hey, loser. How's my best frand doin'? I miss you so much every single day and I casually might not ever give you your pants back :) jk I will it might just be a while ANYWHO, I kinda wanted to write you something that wasn't actually mean for once. You know. Something nice and wholesome. Don't worry, I'll go back to treating you like trash immediately after :) So. This is just to say you are hands down one of the BEST things that could have happened to me in my few short months at Vassar. Part of me feels like you're my long lost twin (which would explain why we treat each other like trash but also care about each other a whole lot lot lot). I dunno, dude, I miss our long walks and our trips to the Deece and walking back to Cushing while throwing shade at Noyes and I miss making fun of your tomato hands and I miss binging Narcos with you and Stranger Things and dropping classes every other day. I miss our fight club and our long chats in the basement and doing laundry and just idk existing in the same space. You mean more to me than you know. I know this all might just sound like sappy shit to you but I mean it. I love you, ya stinkin' banana. So much. Please don't forget about me while I'm gone. Okay. I'm done. Hope you had a fab Thanksgiving, fucker :)
Linnea: Hello, love. Can I just point out that you are the best roommate I've ever had? I know you probably don't believe me but guuuuuuuurl, I've seen some shit XD Anyway, this is just me telling you everything I've already said before—Linnea, my love, you are so beautiful, and so talented, and so fucking kind. Like I don't even think you understand. Your hugs and your smiles and your forehead kisses and your post its and your text messages and your radiance would just make my day. Thank you for all those times we stayed up late ordering Bacio's and watching Disney movies or Full House. Thank you for all the times you reminded me I needed to pee. Thank you for your Heath Bars on bad days and dance parties on good days. Thank you for dealing with all my crazy and all my emotional reck-ness. Thank you for unintentional twinning and for teaching me to do my eyebrows and for not judging me for my lack of clothing at all times. Thank you for stealing food from the Deece with me and for rants about pretty boys. You mean the world to me, darling. I cannot WAIT to see you again. You are such a shining star, and you better believe it. No one shines quite as brightly as you. I love you I love you I love you <3
Juliana: Mi amorrrrrrr, te extraño tanto!!! I can't wait to go back and just dance the night away with you again. For real though, you make everything more fun. You gotta teach me Portuguese sometime! Take care of Samira while I'm gone, she worries me sometimes XD
Prat: My duuuuude, I'm sorry we never quite got around to seeing each other as much as we wanted to but props for being one of my first friends at Vassar. I miss your hugs and our drunken endeavors. We gotta catch up on that next year, yeah?
Githu: Casually had a crush on you like the first week of school, oops? Hahaha no but for real though, you're drop dead gorgeous and you deserve to know that. Also I wish we saw each other more because whenever we hung out, it was a good time. Much love!!!
Moe: It looks like Cushing is going to see you around more than me now, huh?
Pedro: Keep doing your thing, dude. It's rad.
Anthony: Mijo, espero que te estes cuidando bien, ah? Cuando vuelva, tenemos que comenzar esas cenas españolas, okay?
Sergio: Esa noche que bailamos juntos fue un verdadero éxito. Aunque de verdad no ayudó que me acababa de tomar tres shots de tequila...
Ethan: Wow wow wow #1 best stufel EVER. Like, you have no idea how helpful you've been in the time that I spent at Vassar. I couldn't have done it without you.
The Night Owls-- I LOVE YOU (OWL) ALL!
Lily: Not gonna lie, was casually intimidated by you during auditions and callbacks but then learned how wacky and darling you were and fell absolutely in love!
Chiara: You are such a stunna. Like WOW I forget to sing my part whenever you're soloing because I lowkey become mesmerized at how talented you are but oh whaleeeee!
Imani: Thank you coming up to me at the activities fair and for asking me if I liked to sing. That's lowkey how I got it all started... I could never repay you for that <3
Bailey: Thank you for being my rock as I struggled through a helluva tough decision. Your help was so so so appreciated.
Jacqui: MAMA!!! I miss our mutual geekiness over superheroes and our sectionals and literally any time ever spent with you. I look up to you so so so much.
Haley: Sorta loved you from the first moment you opened your mouth. What can I say? That first impression did not lie.
Zoe: I will never forget the first time I heard you sing Trickle. My jaw literally dropped. You amaze me.
Olivia: I'M SORRY I HAVEN'T MET YOU YET, MAMA, BUT I CAN'T WAIT TO!
Emma: 5'2 CLUB! I feel like we have very similar souls and I am so thankful for your good vibes and good advice <3
Sam: You sometimes make me cry with how genuine you are. No lie, your hugs and authenticity give me life. And Hayden Elizabeth the Dinosaur, too.
Ariana: HEY THANKS FOR BEING MY QUEER CHAPERONE! IT WAS LIT!
Sab: That one mug night with you made me learn so much and I can't remember having a more entertaining time xx
Maisha: My darling Maisha, seeing your face in rehearsal was like saying hello to the sun.
Helen: My sweet Helen, your work snapchats were hella relatable and I lowkey miss them so much.
Elena: My dear Elena, your elegance and goofiness can be described as nothing more than high art.
The cast of Spring Awakening: To be completely honest, I'd wanted to be a part of this show since I was twelve years old. Even though I didn't end up being onstage with you, it meant the world to at least be chosen to be a part of it in the first place. Much love. (Also I'm expecting to see a recording soon please and thank you)
Las niñas de Cayacoa: No podría amar lo que estoy haciendo si no fuera por ustedes. Las quiero. Cuidanse bien, oyeron?
Barbara: Holy wow, I have never actually found someone who worked and well, you worked and so I'm sort of amazed. Wow wow wow good job universe for pairing us together and all :)
Aaron Tveit: What a beautiful man you are wow let's get married thank you
Ben Platt: So if I could have your babies, that would be nice. I just need them to sing. Jk jk thank you for showing me what performance is all about. Thank you for reminding me why I want to make it my profession.
Zoella: Once again, you never fail to make me smile. You've always been there, from the very beginning :)
Me: You've made it this far. I dare you to live a little longer.
..........
And those are just a few of the big ones.
Hasta la próxima,
Much love xoxo
Maya
Monday, June 26, 2017
My Friends and the Hundreds of Millions of Things That They Are
Hello loves. I was doing a bit of tumblring the other day when I happened upon something quite interesting and this, right here, my dears, is my attempt at recreating that.
Please don't take offense, just know that every one of these things is what makes me love you even more <3
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Claire: nineteen, goldilocks 'til the day she dies, red lipstick and waterproof mascara, films everything her friends do because my god she loves them, blogposts and dark chocolate, bandanas and shades on-the-go, band-T's and pointe shoes, eats trail mix by the pound, chipped nail polish, a smile that makes her eyes crease like sun-rays, car keys and sunscreen, loud music or no music, pancakes and OJ, proud Ravenclaw, Stitchers and T-swizzle, too much perfume and unabashed cackling, no one loves more fiercely than she.
Fonts: twenty-one, begins most sentences with a pun, beer cans and flip-flops, life of the party or first one to crash, bass amps and drunken texts, light hazing and hidden compliments, pocket poetry and solid ground, old music and sage advice, glazed eyes and wide smiles, thoughts that expand beyond the universe, engages in many a poke battle, polo shirts and Bermuda shorts, relentless, Bruce Springsteen and ping-pong, loud singing and wholesome memes, unafraid of dropping everything for the ones he loves.
Mike: twenty, prickly stubble and bone-crushing hugs, goofy smiles and 3/4 socks, dad glasses and drumsticks, honesty and lack of grace, undecipherable texts and American chop suey, the calm after the storm (but sometimes also the storm), Brother Bear and a desire to be needed, pinky promises and Buffalo pizza, impulsive and stupid and an absolute goon, Star Wars and Lord of the Rings, pats on the back and words of encouragement, protective to a fault, Dunkin' Donuts and tired eyes, will always forgive and welcome you back.
Caellum: nineteen, a mess of curls and a jumpy personality, drives too fast, plays too loud, calloused hands and muscle-T's, Shakespeare extraordinaire, color-changing eyes and itty bitty handwriting, microphones and videogames and headphones that don't fit, brooding in shadows and existentialist thoughts, miles of legs with nowhere to go, ice cream and sarcasm, tea leaves and liquor, unfinished poetry and skinny jeans, beanies and irony, weed and cologne, fingerless gloves and Sherlock quotes, Disney movies and warm blankets, loves too deeply, falls too quickly, a force to be reckoned with.
Amanda: seventeen, angels and demons, ukulele strings, snapbacks and leather jackets, bugspray and cigarettes, drunk texts and watchful eyes, rollercoasters and hand-holding, Lauren Jauregui and skin-tight jeans, a mix of perfume and cologne, sly smirks and ringed fingers, hair like a black cascade, sketches and journals and soul sealed shut, danger and risk but excitement, Netflix and whispers in the dark, wears confidence like a cape, literal child and puppy-lover, nightmares and after-cuddles, crucifixes and hockey sticks, sunflower seeds and tough love, a knowing spirit with a knowing heart.
Tom: twenty, wild red mane and height of a tree, high-pitched giggles and shiny guitars, head-banging while lip-synching your favorite songs, all real and there and present, brilliant at one-too-many things, guitar picks and tuners and cool toys, munchies for days, laughter that rattles your soul, eyes that live only in the right now, resident ginger and cheerer upper, John Mayer and unfinished lyrics, mac 'n cheese and Mountain Dew, heart of a lion and drive of a motor engine, never have I ever met a more generous soul.
Sophia: nineteen, basketball hoops and keyboards, laughter that can light up an entire room, no bullshit and no bounds, Adidas and crops tops, mono and cough drops, bouncy black curls and nose rings, jam sessions and inside jokes, ziplock bags filled with NyQuil, lights fireworks as she speaks, heart and soul and no holding back, voice like melted chocolate, secret sororities and med-school lingo, cocoa butter and lactose intolerance, late night chats under magical skies, airplane buddies and mutual hatred, the Angelica to my Eliza, lives every day like her last, consider yourself blessed to be her friend.
Lauryn: sixteen, loud jokes and snide remarks, tight braids and big doe-eyes, musicals and rap battles, pineapples and EpiPens, bra-flinger and tickling extraordinaire, 10/10 will fight you, fanfiction and One Direction, uneven tans and Mexican jokes, talent for making anything sexual, insults those she loves most, Jeff and memes and Capri Suns, an explosion that cannot be contained, hot sauce and banter and booty, stubborn and unflinching, will screenshot anything to blackmail you, butt grabs and raspberry chocolate, 1000% under-appreciated and the whole world needs to know what a wonder she is.
Kelila: seventeen, gentle eyes and flashing teeth, cherry allergies and Dr. Pepper, loudest at the table and quietest in her head, all purple and soft and aching, horses and ice-chewing and violas, converse and rainbows, poetry etched into the corners of notebooks, can always tell when something is wrong, sour gummies and insomnia and clumsiness, injuries and sweet tooths, loud sneezes and cold hands, indecisive, unpredictable, fuzzy and caring and warm, brilliant, hysterical and capable, small lil daisy waiting to bloom.
Riley: sixteen, vanilla and baby powder, mixtapes and distracks, laughs too loud and smiles too big, platonic kisses and baggy T-shirts, polar and extreme, selfies and finsta posts, gummy bears and no filters, hockey sticks and tight dresses, chokers and smiling eyes and too-honest remarks, strawberry blonde and extra butter, glitter eyeliner and softball gloves, a gaze like staring into a galaxy, voice trembling with vibrato, can't help how she feels, tries her damned hardest, all aboard the Angst Express, eyelashes that never stop growing, messy buns and leggings and a desire to be loved.
Megan: seventeen, tangled hair and hot chocolate, long lashes and turtlenecks, excited squeals from miles away, hidden hickeys and homemade nachos, marshmallow-soft hugs and dance parties, shopping buddy and fellow dickphobe, unable to say no, fleece sweatshirts and peppermint, big spoon and hums of approval, Better Spouse with freaky feet, Harry Potter and John Green, leg warmers and organized chaos, mismatched socks and wooly mittens, all of the beauty and all of the charm, will kiss you on the forehead and gift you chestnuts for good luck, basically the purest human I know.
Emma: fifteen, blue eyes like a crystal sea, unknowing of what she wants, eccentric vegetarian, Dutch braids and no grace, Play-Do and Snapchat filters, can't dance and can't be left alone, Mario Kart and fuzzy socks, blue veins and pink cheeks, will travel great distances to keep you fed, mind ablaze with a thousand thoughts per minute, juice boxes and MiniWheats, contagious laughter and made-up songs, one second she loves you and the next—watch out, avoids confrontation, Stitch and bracelets and pockets of sunshine, boybands and playfights and unconditional love, tends to view life through a catastrophic lens, sizzles and pops and just wants to be good enough, my precious child.
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So there you have it. Accurate or way off? You let me know ;)
Missing you all a bunch and a half!
Hasta la próxima,
Much love xoxo
Maya
Tuesday, June 20, 2017
All the Important Words
The thing about writing important words is at first, no matter what, they're gonna sound like crap. And for a while now, I've been sitting here thinking of important words and the various forms they could be rearranged so they sound like something real but I guess sometimes the important stuff is just gonna sound like crap anyway. Am I making any sense? Oh, bother.
I guess my point is I'm sat here on my bed in a Vassar V-neck and it's 86 degrees outside and I've got second degree burns on my arms and legs from river rafting and I've been up for a consecutive twelve hours trying to finish a book and my owl glasses are on and my face is a mess but I pulled myself together enough so I could sit here and try to write important words.
See, I just finished reading Jennifer Niven's All the Bright Places and without spoiling anything, I can tell you that novel takes you on one heck of a ride. I speak as a teenager. I speak as a seventeen-year-old girl who knows what it's like to love someone so very much and lose them anyhow. I speak as someone who has been there, on every single side of the equation. Listen, recent events in my own life may have allowed for this book to dig a deeper hole in my heart than perhaps it may have if everything had been all right.
My parents are recently divorced.
My very good friend took her own life.
I split with my longterm boy/best friend.
The dark is creeping its way back in and my country is on the brink of revolution.
And yet I am grateful. You see, if anything, All the Bright Places has made me feel more Awake than ever. If you ever read the book (which I highly recommend you do), you'll know what that means. It's just... It's filled with important words—things that need to be said. About adolescence, about mental illness, about friendships, relationships, people, life. We're all just people trying to understand one another and sometimes we think we speak the same language when really, we should be paying more attention to our dialect.
I don't know if that made sense.
In any case, I was in the kitchen a couple of minutes ago, sleep deprived and eating a shitty apple, when suddenly I wanted nothing more than to shout all the important words—loud enough for all the important people to hear.
I love you. More than anything.
Don't leave me.
Please.
I wanted to beg but then the important people would have been alarmed and thought I'd gone insane.
But maybe I am.
Maybe we're all insane and we're all just trying to get by as quickly and quietly and unnoticed as possible?
I'm hungry again. The apple was spoiled, anyway.
I look up at the mirror on my wall and I quite literally feel as though I've aged in the past twelve hours. I can't begin to explain... Just... Like it's just finally there was someone in the world who knew. She knew, and she grabbed the important words and arranged them perfectly and wrote them down and now they're out in the world.
Sue me for having a marshmallow heart, it came with the package.
I need to get my mind off this book, off the fatigue, off the feverish sunburn, so I open my closet and rummage for nail polish.
Only I just remembered I'm shit at painting nails.
My arms look puffy. I think they're swollen from the burn.
I sometimes think my thoughts are much like an angry sunburn: light and near unnoticeable at first, but building in color, building in rage as time goes on; painful and red and stubborn and unflinching when pulled; stinging and burning and seething when touched.
I stand up and feel the skin pull taut around my knees, like rubbery leather. Those for sure will leave an ugly tan.
I wish I could make all these thoughts more cohesive. I'm not really sure which direction I'm going in anymore.
But none of us do.
It's all a mystery and who knows, maybe that's the best part.
I tried to take a nap but all I could think of were Luc and Rosie.
And then all the people who were taken too soon.
What if Matt hadn't fallen asleep and what if Genji had worn a seatbelt and what if Ben hadn't been drinking that night and what if Luc had warned someone and what if someone had just known about Rosie, what if...?
I miss them all so much it hurts.
I dreamt of Rosie and of Luc and just pictured myself hugging them and apologizing over and over and over, tears streaming down my face and they just looked down at me and smiled and patted my head and didn't say a word.
But they were right there. Right in front of me and I couldn't do a damn thing to save them now.
It just didn't seem real. None of it seems real. It's been months and months and none of it seems real.
I suspect it's the sort of pain one doesn't ever really get over, just learns to cope with.
To all my important people:
Know that you are loved. You are so loved and like it or not, you are a part of every single person you've met. You have changed them and become a part of their story and goodness gracious, they would not be where they are today if it weren't for you.
Know that you are needed. I need you. Holy fuck, do I need you. Don't you dare leave me. Not anytime soon.
Know that time will heal. I sound like a right hypocrite because I'm guilty of tricking myself into believing none of it will ever be okay again. But that's simply not true. You've got to believe that someday, you will be okay again. Things will be okay again. And if it's not okay, it's not the end.
I suspect my train of thought has dragged you all over the place by now. I'm sorry.
My mind is a messy place, but you already knew that.
I'm hungry. I should probably go do something about that.
Take care of yourselves, please. Treat yourself like you would a small child.
I love you.
Hasta la próxima,
Much love xoxo
Maya
I guess my point is I'm sat here on my bed in a Vassar V-neck and it's 86 degrees outside and I've got second degree burns on my arms and legs from river rafting and I've been up for a consecutive twelve hours trying to finish a book and my owl glasses are on and my face is a mess but I pulled myself together enough so I could sit here and try to write important words.
See, I just finished reading Jennifer Niven's All the Bright Places and without spoiling anything, I can tell you that novel takes you on one heck of a ride. I speak as a teenager. I speak as a seventeen-year-old girl who knows what it's like to love someone so very much and lose them anyhow. I speak as someone who has been there, on every single side of the equation. Listen, recent events in my own life may have allowed for this book to dig a deeper hole in my heart than perhaps it may have if everything had been all right.
My parents are recently divorced.
My very good friend took her own life.
I split with my longterm boy/best friend.
The dark is creeping its way back in and my country is on the brink of revolution.
And yet I am grateful. You see, if anything, All the Bright Places has made me feel more Awake than ever. If you ever read the book (which I highly recommend you do), you'll know what that means. It's just... It's filled with important words—things that need to be said. About adolescence, about mental illness, about friendships, relationships, people, life. We're all just people trying to understand one another and sometimes we think we speak the same language when really, we should be paying more attention to our dialect.
I don't know if that made sense.
In any case, I was in the kitchen a couple of minutes ago, sleep deprived and eating a shitty apple, when suddenly I wanted nothing more than to shout all the important words—loud enough for all the important people to hear.
I love you. More than anything.
Don't leave me.
Please.
I wanted to beg but then the important people would have been alarmed and thought I'd gone insane.
But maybe I am.
Maybe we're all insane and we're all just trying to get by as quickly and quietly and unnoticed as possible?
I'm hungry again. The apple was spoiled, anyway.
I look up at the mirror on my wall and I quite literally feel as though I've aged in the past twelve hours. I can't begin to explain... Just... Like it's just finally there was someone in the world who knew. She knew, and she grabbed the important words and arranged them perfectly and wrote them down and now they're out in the world.
Sue me for having a marshmallow heart, it came with the package.
I need to get my mind off this book, off the fatigue, off the feverish sunburn, so I open my closet and rummage for nail polish.
Only I just remembered I'm shit at painting nails.
My arms look puffy. I think they're swollen from the burn.
I sometimes think my thoughts are much like an angry sunburn: light and near unnoticeable at first, but building in color, building in rage as time goes on; painful and red and stubborn and unflinching when pulled; stinging and burning and seething when touched.
I stand up and feel the skin pull taut around my knees, like rubbery leather. Those for sure will leave an ugly tan.
I wish I could make all these thoughts more cohesive. I'm not really sure which direction I'm going in anymore.
But none of us do.
It's all a mystery and who knows, maybe that's the best part.
I tried to take a nap but all I could think of were Luc and Rosie.
And then all the people who were taken too soon.
What if Matt hadn't fallen asleep and what if Genji had worn a seatbelt and what if Ben hadn't been drinking that night and what if Luc had warned someone and what if someone had just known about Rosie, what if...?
I miss them all so much it hurts.
I dreamt of Rosie and of Luc and just pictured myself hugging them and apologizing over and over and over, tears streaming down my face and they just looked down at me and smiled and patted my head and didn't say a word.
But they were right there. Right in front of me and I couldn't do a damn thing to save them now.
It just didn't seem real. None of it seems real. It's been months and months and none of it seems real.
I suspect it's the sort of pain one doesn't ever really get over, just learns to cope with.
To all my important people:
Know that you are loved. You are so loved and like it or not, you are a part of every single person you've met. You have changed them and become a part of their story and goodness gracious, they would not be where they are today if it weren't for you.
Know that you are needed. I need you. Holy fuck, do I need you. Don't you dare leave me. Not anytime soon.
Know that time will heal. I sound like a right hypocrite because I'm guilty of tricking myself into believing none of it will ever be okay again. But that's simply not true. You've got to believe that someday, you will be okay again. Things will be okay again. And if it's not okay, it's not the end.
I suspect my train of thought has dragged you all over the place by now. I'm sorry.
My mind is a messy place, but you already knew that.
I'm hungry. I should probably go do something about that.
Take care of yourselves, please. Treat yourself like you would a small child.
I love you.
Hasta la próxima,
Much love xoxo
Maya
Wednesday, January 25, 2017
A Series of Tumultuous Events
Hello, dearest readers.
"Martha, for God's sake, go to bed."
Martha stops short, her next words lodging in her throat. We can see the desperation and despair in her eyes.
"All right."
She walks over to the door. Karen keeps her back to her.
As she opens the door, she says,"Goodnight, darling". And she is gone.
Karen shuts her eyes, contemplating what she just said. The regret is plain on her face.
She turns back towards Martha's bedroom door when it happens.
No one expected the shot.
No one had prepared for that most heart-wrenching sound.
Karen doesn't even scream. She swallows a gasp, eyes wide and unforgiving as she steadies herself to the ground.
Mrs. Tilferd comes knocking on the door, eager to share her news.
"It's all been figured out! The girls confessed! Oh, isn't it wonderful, Karen?! You and Martha are free!"
"Martha is dead. Go. It makes no difference anymore."
"But I—"
"Get out of my house."
Karen doesn't look back to check as Mrs. Tilferd shuts the door.
The stage grows dimmer and dimmer, darkness nearly enveloping Karen as she's left all alone in the room.
She stands herself up, takes a look around the empty, chalkboard-covered room, swiping her hand across the ancient chalk dust. A place this familiar shouldn't hold this much pain.
Then she walks towards the door—her dead best friend just on the other side.
Darkness swallows her every step, but when when she opens the door, all we see is light.
And that was the end.
Everyone, everyone in that tiny little theater stood up and clapped like nothing I'd ever seen before.
Everyone but me and little Emma.
Tears stream silently down my cheeks. My hand clings to my neck and I suddenly realize I haven't been breathing.
I exhale and look over at Emma. Her expression is identical to mine—numb, confused, lost, and forlorn.
We don't clap.
It takes us far too long to register when people start to get up and leave.
Neither of us feel like talking. It feels disrespectful to talk. Meanwhile, the rest of our chatterbox class rambles on and on about how that was so depressing and they've never watched something so sad in their life.
But that's the thing. It wasn't even real. They haven't witnessed that kind of loss and I hope to God they never have to.
Emma keeps it together until we're about fifty feet away from the red mini-bus. She grabs at my elbow and lets out the tiniest sobs.
The rest of the class has moved on to chat about other things but neither of us see how they can.
I want nothing more than to pull her in a giant hug and tell her everything's gonna be okay.
But I can't because I know she'd hate me if I started a scene.
So I wait for us to climb on the bus and ask her if she wants to sit in the back. When she nods, I make my way over to the seat and leave room for her as I sit down. Within seconds, her head is in my lap and her whole body shakes with uncontrollable sobs.
I don't say anything as I sit there and comb through her hair and rub circles into her back.
Sometimes there's just nothing to say.
After a while though, she sits up and I ask her what she's thinking about.
"Luc,"
"Yeah, me too,"
We didn't even know Luc all that well and it still has this much of an impact on us.
Suicide is not a joke. It is not a game. It is not something someone wakes up and "decides" to do.
As someone who's struggled with suicidal thoughts for a long while, it is far more complicated than any other "decision".
I'm not trying to speak for everyone out there because everyone goes through quite different experiences, but it certainly is not easy battling those thoughts everyday.
Luc is the second person I know to have committed suicide. The first one was a boy at my other school, back in DR. His name was Ben. He was only sixteen.
All I ask is that if you ever, and I mean EVER, have feelings of hurting yourself or others, please ask for help. I beg of you, do NOT keep it to yourself.
National Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-800-273-8255
They are available 24/7. Do not think of yourself as an inconvenience. You are not a burden.
All in all, Thursday was a rough night. I didn't sleep much and to top it off, the next morning was the Presidential Inauguration.
All I can say is they played the livestream of it during my precalculus class and I felt like vomiting the entire time.
Despite this series of events, I am alive and okay and to tell the truth, the news of the Women's March on January 21st made my heart leap.
It was so uplifting to see so many people unite and fight for these very human and very necessary concerns and beliefs.
I hope you all have it in your heart to power through and march beyond.
It will not be easy but it will be worth it.
Hasta la próxima,
So so so much love xoxo
Maya
First of all, I deeply apologize for my absence—the Abbey's been more hectic than usual.
Secondly, amongst this crazy week (covered in AP Euro tests and AP Euro identifications and Drama monologues and Enharmonix rehearsals and voice lessons and Legally Blonde rehearsals and Precalculus problems), I got to see a play last week, called "The Children's Hour."
It was to be me and my entire drama class (comprised of seven freshmen plus me) traveling to The Gamm Theatre, which is this quaint little thing in Providence. Highly recommend it.
All we knew going into it was that the story took place at a girl's boarding school and it was written in the 1930s. And a big scandal involving homosexuality occurs.
Not a chance did I think I'd walk out of that theater with my heart on the floor, shattered in a million pieces. *Spoiler alert, if you're still interested in watching it yourself, I suggest you stop reading right now*
We walk into the tiny theatre (that looks more like a black-box) and take our seats. My first thought is how on earth are they going to fit an entire cast on that smidgeon of a stage??? It's cute, of course, but doesn't seem very practical. The walls are entirely covered by a series of dusty, green chalk boards, all different sizes and all antique-looking. I'm sure that's the idea, anyway. An old-fashioned sort of swing plays through the speakers. Emma turns to me and says she doesn't quite like the music. We sit and we wait.
Before long, a more modern, more upbeat yet sexy tune plays through the speakers behind our heads. Schoolgirls bust into the room dressed in plaid little skirts and burgundy bobby socks. A highly ostentatious old woman attempts to take control of the class. She wears a flower-print dress. Too many colors on it are clashing. She recites a scene from Julius Caesar. Some girls pretend to listen while others cause trouble behind chalk boards.
All's well and good as one by one, the protagonists (and antagonists) are introduced: Karen, a sweet-as-can-be school teacher and headmistress; Joe, her perfect doctor of a fiancee; Martha, co-headmistress as well as Karen's best friend; Aunt Lily, the ostentatious old lady who likes to think of herself as a world-renowned actress; Mrs. Tilferd, the most generous donor to the school, and her troublesome, rowdy granddaughter, Mary.
Mary's got some serious issues to say the least. She's a compulsive liar, a prime manipulator, persistent bully, and quite frankly, a virus to human nature. Fed up with being constantly punished, she throws a fit and runs away from school back to her grandmother's place, using all her malice and all her charm to weasel her way through grandma. Ultimately, she convinces her grandmother that some "funny business" has been happening at school between the two headmistresses—some "sinful" acts that are completely "unnatural".
That was all it took. One tiny little lie, one eensie-weensie little rumor to unravel a series of most tumultuous events. Grandmother Tilferd, most horrified, proceeds to call up the rest of the school and orders all the parents to take their children home. She believes the school is not "safe" anymore.
Absolutely perplexed, Karen, Martha, and Joe appear at Grandmother Tilferd's house, demanding answers. All anyone can do is watch in shock as Mary stands by her story, Mrs. Tilferd taking her side, seeing as Mary's the only little angel she's got left. "I don't understand and I'm not sure I want to understand," she spits.
Little by little, Karen and Martha's whole world spirals into a pit of most unwelcome despair. Over the course of seven months, they lose the trial, their school shuts down, they lose their jobs, they lose their money, their reputations, all their hopes and dreams. All because of one very unhappy and mentally disturbed little girl.
Joe comes and visits the two almost-starving women at their closed-down schoolhouse. Through it all, he has not abandoned them. He supports them and provides for them—even though Martha is not his bride to be. Joe quite possibly might be the most underrated character of the whole play and must be recognized for his heart of gold.
Karen gets into an argument with Joe, kindled by paranoia. She believes Joe will grow to resent her for the rest of their lives since they can never take back the events that had occurred. She asks him to leave—to take a break from her—and unwillingly, he surrenders, leaving a confused and distraught Karen in his wake.
Martha walks into the room and begins her confession.
"I love you."
"Why, I love you too, Martha."
"But you see... I've always loved you. Perhaps the way the others said," she admits.
Karen refuses to believe it's true. She tries blaming Martha's delusions on exhaustion and paranoia and hunger. She orders Martha to go to bed.
"Karen, all my life I knew something was wrong but I didn't know what. Now, I'm starting to understand..."
We walk into the tiny theatre (that looks more like a black-box) and take our seats. My first thought is how on earth are they going to fit an entire cast on that smidgeon of a stage??? It's cute, of course, but doesn't seem very practical. The walls are entirely covered by a series of dusty, green chalk boards, all different sizes and all antique-looking. I'm sure that's the idea, anyway. An old-fashioned sort of swing plays through the speakers. Emma turns to me and says she doesn't quite like the music. We sit and we wait.
Before long, a more modern, more upbeat yet sexy tune plays through the speakers behind our heads. Schoolgirls bust into the room dressed in plaid little skirts and burgundy bobby socks. A highly ostentatious old woman attempts to take control of the class. She wears a flower-print dress. Too many colors on it are clashing. She recites a scene from Julius Caesar. Some girls pretend to listen while others cause trouble behind chalk boards.
All's well and good as one by one, the protagonists (and antagonists) are introduced: Karen, a sweet-as-can-be school teacher and headmistress; Joe, her perfect doctor of a fiancee; Martha, co-headmistress as well as Karen's best friend; Aunt Lily, the ostentatious old lady who likes to think of herself as a world-renowned actress; Mrs. Tilferd, the most generous donor to the school, and her troublesome, rowdy granddaughter, Mary.
Mary's got some serious issues to say the least. She's a compulsive liar, a prime manipulator, persistent bully, and quite frankly, a virus to human nature. Fed up with being constantly punished, she throws a fit and runs away from school back to her grandmother's place, using all her malice and all her charm to weasel her way through grandma. Ultimately, she convinces her grandmother that some "funny business" has been happening at school between the two headmistresses—some "sinful" acts that are completely "unnatural".
That was all it took. One tiny little lie, one eensie-weensie little rumor to unravel a series of most tumultuous events. Grandmother Tilferd, most horrified, proceeds to call up the rest of the school and orders all the parents to take their children home. She believes the school is not "safe" anymore.
Absolutely perplexed, Karen, Martha, and Joe appear at Grandmother Tilferd's house, demanding answers. All anyone can do is watch in shock as Mary stands by her story, Mrs. Tilferd taking her side, seeing as Mary's the only little angel she's got left. "I don't understand and I'm not sure I want to understand," she spits.
Little by little, Karen and Martha's whole world spirals into a pit of most unwelcome despair. Over the course of seven months, they lose the trial, their school shuts down, they lose their jobs, they lose their money, their reputations, all their hopes and dreams. All because of one very unhappy and mentally disturbed little girl.
Joe comes and visits the two almost-starving women at their closed-down schoolhouse. Through it all, he has not abandoned them. He supports them and provides for them—even though Martha is not his bride to be. Joe quite possibly might be the most underrated character of the whole play and must be recognized for his heart of gold.
Karen gets into an argument with Joe, kindled by paranoia. She believes Joe will grow to resent her for the rest of their lives since they can never take back the events that had occurred. She asks him to leave—to take a break from her—and unwillingly, he surrenders, leaving a confused and distraught Karen in his wake.
Martha walks into the room and begins her confession.
"I love you."
"Why, I love you too, Martha."
"But you see... I've always loved you. Perhaps the way the others said," she admits.
Karen refuses to believe it's true. She tries blaming Martha's delusions on exhaustion and paranoia and hunger. She orders Martha to go to bed.
"Karen, all my life I knew something was wrong but I didn't know what. Now, I'm starting to understand..."
"Martha, for God's sake, go to bed."
Martha stops short, her next words lodging in her throat. We can see the desperation and despair in her eyes.
"All right."
She walks over to the door. Karen keeps her back to her.
As she opens the door, she says,"Goodnight, darling". And she is gone.
Karen shuts her eyes, contemplating what she just said. The regret is plain on her face.
She turns back towards Martha's bedroom door when it happens.
No one expected the shot.
No one had prepared for that most heart-wrenching sound.
Karen doesn't even scream. She swallows a gasp, eyes wide and unforgiving as she steadies herself to the ground.
Mrs. Tilferd comes knocking on the door, eager to share her news.
"It's all been figured out! The girls confessed! Oh, isn't it wonderful, Karen?! You and Martha are free!"
"Martha is dead. Go. It makes no difference anymore."
"But I—"
"Get out of my house."
Karen doesn't look back to check as Mrs. Tilferd shuts the door.
The stage grows dimmer and dimmer, darkness nearly enveloping Karen as she's left all alone in the room.
She stands herself up, takes a look around the empty, chalkboard-covered room, swiping her hand across the ancient chalk dust. A place this familiar shouldn't hold this much pain.
Then she walks towards the door—her dead best friend just on the other side.
Darkness swallows her every step, but when when she opens the door, all we see is light.
And that was the end.
Everyone, everyone in that tiny little theater stood up and clapped like nothing I'd ever seen before.
Everyone but me and little Emma.
Tears stream silently down my cheeks. My hand clings to my neck and I suddenly realize I haven't been breathing.
I exhale and look over at Emma. Her expression is identical to mine—numb, confused, lost, and forlorn.
We don't clap.
It takes us far too long to register when people start to get up and leave.
Neither of us feel like talking. It feels disrespectful to talk. Meanwhile, the rest of our chatterbox class rambles on and on about how that was so depressing and they've never watched something so sad in their life.
But that's the thing. It wasn't even real. They haven't witnessed that kind of loss and I hope to God they never have to.
Emma keeps it together until we're about fifty feet away from the red mini-bus. She grabs at my elbow and lets out the tiniest sobs.
The rest of the class has moved on to chat about other things but neither of us see how they can.
I want nothing more than to pull her in a giant hug and tell her everything's gonna be okay.
But I can't because I know she'd hate me if I started a scene.
So I wait for us to climb on the bus and ask her if she wants to sit in the back. When she nods, I make my way over to the seat and leave room for her as I sit down. Within seconds, her head is in my lap and her whole body shakes with uncontrollable sobs.
I don't say anything as I sit there and comb through her hair and rub circles into her back.
Sometimes there's just nothing to say.
After a while though, she sits up and I ask her what she's thinking about.
"Luc,"
"Yeah, me too,"
We didn't even know Luc all that well and it still has this much of an impact on us.
Suicide is not a joke. It is not a game. It is not something someone wakes up and "decides" to do.
As someone who's struggled with suicidal thoughts for a long while, it is far more complicated than any other "decision".
I'm not trying to speak for everyone out there because everyone goes through quite different experiences, but it certainly is not easy battling those thoughts everyday.
Luc is the second person I know to have committed suicide. The first one was a boy at my other school, back in DR. His name was Ben. He was only sixteen.
All I ask is that if you ever, and I mean EVER, have feelings of hurting yourself or others, please ask for help. I beg of you, do NOT keep it to yourself.
National Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-800-273-8255
They are available 24/7. Do not think of yourself as an inconvenience. You are not a burden.
All in all, Thursday was a rough night. I didn't sleep much and to top it off, the next morning was the Presidential Inauguration.
All I can say is they played the livestream of it during my precalculus class and I felt like vomiting the entire time.
Despite this series of events, I am alive and okay and to tell the truth, the news of the Women's March on January 21st made my heart leap.
It was so uplifting to see so many people unite and fight for these very human and very necessary concerns and beliefs.
I hope you all have it in your heart to power through and march beyond.
It will not be easy but it will be worth it.
Hasta la próxima,
So so so much love xoxo
Maya
Saturday, November 26, 2016
Turkey Day List #2
(Just so y'all know, I meant to post this two entire days ago but I'm a lil shit so I didn't)
HIYA MY LOVES <3
On such a lovely bubbly day, I'd like to give my infinite thanks to all the individuals I'm blessed to have in my life. Hold onto your socks cuz this might take a while...
Mami: I know we don't always understand each other but I cannot thank you enough for trying. I love you so so so much and that will never ever change.
Papi: I can't wait to binge watch Gilmore Girls with you over Christmas break :) Thank you for always reminding me to be kind to myself. Please take your own advice once in a while, yeah? I love you to infinity and beyond. I'm sending you hugs.
YD: You're an asshole. But you travel with me and you occasionally try and make sure that I'm okay. Thanks for coming to most of my shows and stuff. It's somewhat appreciated :P I love you and stuff, I guess. *proceeds to push you into a river*
Javi: Please don't get any taller. I'll miss using you as an arm rest cuz currently you're the only person shorter than me, so... I'm sorry I haven't spoken to you in almost two months but please know I love you so so so much and your big sister will always be here to kick the crap out of anyone who dares get in your way.
Suki: You little chicken nugget, you. I miss you more than your tiny brain could ever comprehend.
Future Puppy: Baby, I cannot wait to pick you out and hold you and cuddle you and love you and care for you and goodness gracious, I want you now. Conor says I should name you Genji or Luna. We'll see how that goes ;)
Wilsons/Estrellas/Fishers: You guys give me so much life. You're a wacky group of misfits and I am so honored to be related to you all.
Kerrs: You guys are the real MVPs. Thank you for all that you do for me.
Doires: I can't wait to be back in my room again :3 After all, I am the better daughter (jk jk Claire, please don't kill me, you know I love you).
Brennans: I don't see you enough. I sincerely hope you stay in our lives for a very long time.
Pri: Mujer, ojala pudiera llevarte a UNI conmigo. De verdad que quisiera. Pero ni modo, solo Dios sabe donde quedaremos y espero que nunca te vayas tan lejos. Te necesito <3
CJS: You crazy human, you. You make all my days infinitely more bearable and you make me laugh harder than anyone I know. You've seen me at my worst and at my best. You've kissed me while I was snot-ridden and while I had about five pounds of stage makeup on. You've hugged me in the snow and in the rain. You've held my hand regardless of the season and I am beyond grateful for all the joy and light you bring to my life. I miss our random road trips and walks through the woods and movie marathons and impromptu dinner dates. It's been a fantastic almost two years. I love you, I really do.
Fonts: I know you're not one for sappy words and all that but I think you know how much you mean to me. You're an absolute nuisance but I love you just the same. Please come home soon <3
Claire: Oh, Claire bear, it's been rough with you gone. I know I've been managing and things are mostly okay but if I could have it my way, I'd still have you here with me, jamming to Hamilton in the car and taking long trips to Stop 'n' Shop. If I could, I'd freeze Claire and Maya Week 2k15 and loop it til the end of time. I'd have us sitting on your couch, watching the Tony Awards and singing Frozen songs at the top of our lungs. I'd have us making pancakes and eating popcorn and scrolling through Tumblr while looking at pretty people. If I could, we'd be snuggled up watching Disney movies with hot cocoa or otherwise booking it to the beach with a speaker and five tons of Capri Sun. I miss you so much but I know you're having a blast at college. Please don't you ever forget about me. I'd be lost without you.
Mike: Gosh, where has the time gone? I feel like just yesterday you were helping me out with my problems but oh, how the tables have turned XD I love you, dude. You do some dumb shit. But I still love you. And I'll support you no matter what. I am always here. Even when I'm holding a grudge. I am always here.
Caellum: It wouldn't kill ya to answer a text once in a blue moon, asshole :P Nah, but in all seriousness I understand how life gets. It's messy and uncoordinated and annoying and exhausting and you have your priorities and I completely understand. That being said, I believe in you. I know things gets shitty sometimes, but goddamn do I believe in you. Please don't you ever forget that.
Shelby: Just because we don't always have the time to talk as much as we used to doesn't mean I'm not always thinking of you. I am so blessed to have you in my life because you are such a lovely, wonderful, caring soul and I would not have it any other way. You give me incentive to get up every morning and I still find it so hard to believe that I've only seen you in person a handful of times, yet I feel like I've known you my entire life. I don't mean to sound redundant but it's true. I cannot picture my life without you and I seriously hope I continue to be a part of your life for a very, very long time. Here's to the next time I get to koala you.
Tiernan: Come back to the East Coast, bitch <3
Sophia: If you decided to start a cult, I'd join it. Like, no lie, you are a Goddess in my eyes. I look up to you so much (no pressure) and every time I second guess myself, I imagine you cheering me on. You just ooze encouragement and good vibes and I think we all need more of that in our lives. Please don't forget about me when we get older. You mean too much to me. You inspire me now and forever.
Maeve: I know we don't talk as much anymore, but trust me, I don't think of you any less. I'm constantly stalking your Insta and Snapchat for pics of Luna and Scout because, well... that's self-explanatory. I miss you so much and I cannot wait to hang out and snuggle you because you may give some of the best snuggles on this planet. I love you!!!
Emma: My gorgeous little sister, I am SO glad I got to be there to witness your first year of high school. Having you in my drama class is beyond fun and no offense to everyone else but you're my favorite <3 It's been such a privilege to watch you grow up and I hope I get to stick around in your life long enough to witness the rest. Keep doing you, boo.
Scotty P: Oh, Scott, I could not live without your hugs. Thanks for providing an endless supply and for being a diva and for introducing me to Boris and Simon and for being my new Claire and for driving us to Dunkin' and Chipotle even though you hate us :) Much love, bro.
Megan: WIFE!!! I live for our communal naps and for your glorious hugs. Thank you for going shopping with me and making sure I'm never lonely. You know I have your back and I know you have mine. If I'm ever sad, I just think of you and you make me smile. You best believe I'm gonna Facetime you whenever I can while I'm at college. Get ready cuz it's gonna be lit.
Amanda: You're weird as fuck but thank you for giving me cuddles and for loving me unconditionally and for introducing me to Riley. Kudos for that ;) Oh! And for all the Fifth Harmony spam. And for sending me pics of boobs when I'm sad. BISEXUALS REPRESENT.
Riley: MY BEAUTIFUL BUTTERFLY thank you for existing. Every time I see you, you make my day instantly better. Thank you for being my big little sister (and practically my mom sometimes). You make my heart smile. BISEXUALS REPRESENT.
Emmalene: It's been four years and I still consider you my magical fairy godmother. It started with just makeup but it's grown into more than that—having you in classes and activities with me over the years has made me addicted to your contagious laugh and always seeking out your hugs and smiles. You are one extraordinary cookie and I am so proud to have you as my friend. Keep dazzling the world with your brilliance ;)
Hannah Banana: BAE!!! As always, I miss my favorite roomie more than ever because my single gets lonely sometimes but I know you always have my back. Your sass gives me life. Thank you for enduring all the Precal with me. I don't know what I'd do without you.
Lucia: Honestly, I have a HUGE friend crush on you, is that bad?
Amber: Tbh, you're like really mean to me sometimes but I don't mind because I know your evil soul can't help it :) I seriously wish we were in the same dorm just so I could see your beautiful face everyday but alas, we can't always get what we want. I better be in your senior page :3
Alasdaire: Okay, real talk, you may be one of the most beautiful human beings I have ever laid eyes on. And that's coming from my super gay side. That being said, you are so sweet to me, sometimes I feel like I don't even deserve your kindness. I could not survive Euro without you, so thank you.
Grace B: I said it freshman year and I stand by it now, you have to be one of the most entertaining people I have ever met. Your constant IDGAF syndrome makes life feel more okay. I could listen to your nerdy biology talks for hours and anyone who dares underestimate your intelligence is a dildo. Please don't ever change.
MegMeg: Thank you for being so kind and for enduring all of Bray Bray's crazy with me. No one will understand the pain like you and me do. Besides, we're kinda the same person, aren't we? XD
Mark: It was an honor acting beside you this fall. You made a lovely husband <3
Young Thuggin': Addison, the day something normal comes out of your mouth will be the day the world turns upside down. Please continue enjoying your communist pizza til the end of time.
Sozanski: You little adorable piece of nerd UGH. As annoying as your know-it-all tendencies may be sometimes, I think we all appreciate the fact that you're literally a walking Encyclopedia. You've grown a lot in the past year but please know I consider you my lil baby child, okay?
Annie: You are kind of bizarre but I couldn't have asked for a better daughter (sorry Amanda). Continue doing your little adorable fairy thing. It suits you.
Marcel: As hard as you try, I'm never gonna date you but I appreciate your determination. Also, watching you try to make Conor jealous is kinda hilarious...
Mr. McCarthy: You seriously do not give a shit, do you? I don't think I could ever ask for a better advisor. Thank you for being a real homie.
Mrs. Bonin: Please don't hate me for not doing my last assignment :) I still love you.
Dr. Bonin: I AM BEGGING YOU PLEASE MAKE SURE I GET INTO COLLEGE PLEASEEE
Ms. Smith: As always, thanks for letting me date your son :) That being said, it's so much fun when we gang up on him (even tho he hates it) and thank you SO much for your infinite generosity. Btw, you're an excellent cook!
Eddie Redmayne: You are SUCH A DUCKING CINNAMON ROLL I COULD EAT YOU UP.
J.K. Rowling: Someday, I hope to be just like you.
Zoe Sugg and Tyler Oakley: As always, thank you for bringing levity to dire situations.
Cinnamon: You precious little kitty cat, I adore you.
Bernie Sanders: It should've been you <3
Mis angeles: No me abandonen, por favor.
Dios mio: Dame fuerza. Dame esperanza. Te necesito, Señor. Dame fe.
Hasta la próxima,
Much love xoxo
Maya
HIYA MY LOVES <3
On such a lovely bubbly day, I'd like to give my infinite thanks to all the individuals I'm blessed to have in my life. Hold onto your socks cuz this might take a while...
Mami: I know we don't always understand each other but I cannot thank you enough for trying. I love you so so so much and that will never ever change.
Papi: I can't wait to binge watch Gilmore Girls with you over Christmas break :) Thank you for always reminding me to be kind to myself. Please take your own advice once in a while, yeah? I love you to infinity and beyond. I'm sending you hugs.
YD: You're an asshole. But you travel with me and you occasionally try and make sure that I'm okay. Thanks for coming to most of my shows and stuff. It's somewhat appreciated :P I love you and stuff, I guess. *proceeds to push you into a river*
Javi: Please don't get any taller. I'll miss using you as an arm rest cuz currently you're the only person shorter than me, so... I'm sorry I haven't spoken to you in almost two months but please know I love you so so so much and your big sister will always be here to kick the crap out of anyone who dares get in your way.
Suki: You little chicken nugget, you. I miss you more than your tiny brain could ever comprehend.
Future Puppy: Baby, I cannot wait to pick you out and hold you and cuddle you and love you and care for you and goodness gracious, I want you now. Conor says I should name you Genji or Luna. We'll see how that goes ;)
Wilsons/Estrellas/Fishers: You guys give me so much life. You're a wacky group of misfits and I am so honored to be related to you all.
Kerrs: You guys are the real MVPs. Thank you for all that you do for me.
Doires: I can't wait to be back in my room again :3 After all, I am the better daughter (jk jk Claire, please don't kill me, you know I love you).
Brennans: I don't see you enough. I sincerely hope you stay in our lives for a very long time.
Pri: Mujer, ojala pudiera llevarte a UNI conmigo. De verdad que quisiera. Pero ni modo, solo Dios sabe donde quedaremos y espero que nunca te vayas tan lejos. Te necesito <3
CJS: You crazy human, you. You make all my days infinitely more bearable and you make me laugh harder than anyone I know. You've seen me at my worst and at my best. You've kissed me while I was snot-ridden and while I had about five pounds of stage makeup on. You've hugged me in the snow and in the rain. You've held my hand regardless of the season and I am beyond grateful for all the joy and light you bring to my life. I miss our random road trips and walks through the woods and movie marathons and impromptu dinner dates. It's been a fantastic almost two years. I love you, I really do.
Fonts: I know you're not one for sappy words and all that but I think you know how much you mean to me. You're an absolute nuisance but I love you just the same. Please come home soon <3
Claire: Oh, Claire bear, it's been rough with you gone. I know I've been managing and things are mostly okay but if I could have it my way, I'd still have you here with me, jamming to Hamilton in the car and taking long trips to Stop 'n' Shop. If I could, I'd freeze Claire and Maya Week 2k15 and loop it til the end of time. I'd have us sitting on your couch, watching the Tony Awards and singing Frozen songs at the top of our lungs. I'd have us making pancakes and eating popcorn and scrolling through Tumblr while looking at pretty people. If I could, we'd be snuggled up watching Disney movies with hot cocoa or otherwise booking it to the beach with a speaker and five tons of Capri Sun. I miss you so much but I know you're having a blast at college. Please don't you ever forget about me. I'd be lost without you.
Mike: Gosh, where has the time gone? I feel like just yesterday you were helping me out with my problems but oh, how the tables have turned XD I love you, dude. You do some dumb shit. But I still love you. And I'll support you no matter what. I am always here. Even when I'm holding a grudge. I am always here.
Caellum: It wouldn't kill ya to answer a text once in a blue moon, asshole :P Nah, but in all seriousness I understand how life gets. It's messy and uncoordinated and annoying and exhausting and you have your priorities and I completely understand. That being said, I believe in you. I know things gets shitty sometimes, but goddamn do I believe in you. Please don't you ever forget that.
Shelby: Just because we don't always have the time to talk as much as we used to doesn't mean I'm not always thinking of you. I am so blessed to have you in my life because you are such a lovely, wonderful, caring soul and I would not have it any other way. You give me incentive to get up every morning and I still find it so hard to believe that I've only seen you in person a handful of times, yet I feel like I've known you my entire life. I don't mean to sound redundant but it's true. I cannot picture my life without you and I seriously hope I continue to be a part of your life for a very, very long time. Here's to the next time I get to koala you.
Tiernan: Come back to the East Coast, bitch <3
Sophia: If you decided to start a cult, I'd join it. Like, no lie, you are a Goddess in my eyes. I look up to you so much (no pressure) and every time I second guess myself, I imagine you cheering me on. You just ooze encouragement and good vibes and I think we all need more of that in our lives. Please don't forget about me when we get older. You mean too much to me. You inspire me now and forever.
Maeve: I know we don't talk as much anymore, but trust me, I don't think of you any less. I'm constantly stalking your Insta and Snapchat for pics of Luna and Scout because, well... that's self-explanatory. I miss you so much and I cannot wait to hang out and snuggle you because you may give some of the best snuggles on this planet. I love you!!!
Emma: My gorgeous little sister, I am SO glad I got to be there to witness your first year of high school. Having you in my drama class is beyond fun and no offense to everyone else but you're my favorite <3 It's been such a privilege to watch you grow up and I hope I get to stick around in your life long enough to witness the rest. Keep doing you, boo.
Scotty P: Oh, Scott, I could not live without your hugs. Thanks for providing an endless supply and for being a diva and for introducing me to Boris and Simon and for being my new Claire and for driving us to Dunkin' and Chipotle even though you hate us :) Much love, bro.
Megan: WIFE!!! I live for our communal naps and for your glorious hugs. Thank you for going shopping with me and making sure I'm never lonely. You know I have your back and I know you have mine. If I'm ever sad, I just think of you and you make me smile. You best believe I'm gonna Facetime you whenever I can while I'm at college. Get ready cuz it's gonna be lit.
Amanda: You're weird as fuck but thank you for giving me cuddles and for loving me unconditionally and for introducing me to Riley. Kudos for that ;) Oh! And for all the Fifth Harmony spam. And for sending me pics of boobs when I'm sad. BISEXUALS REPRESENT.
Riley: MY BEAUTIFUL BUTTERFLY thank you for existing. Every time I see you, you make my day instantly better. Thank you for being my big little sister (and practically my mom sometimes). You make my heart smile. BISEXUALS REPRESENT.
Emmalene: It's been four years and I still consider you my magical fairy godmother. It started with just makeup but it's grown into more than that—having you in classes and activities with me over the years has made me addicted to your contagious laugh and always seeking out your hugs and smiles. You are one extraordinary cookie and I am so proud to have you as my friend. Keep dazzling the world with your brilliance ;)
Hannah Banana: BAE!!! As always, I miss my favorite roomie more than ever because my single gets lonely sometimes but I know you always have my back. Your sass gives me life. Thank you for enduring all the Precal with me. I don't know what I'd do without you.
Lucia: Honestly, I have a HUGE friend crush on you, is that bad?
Amber: Tbh, you're like really mean to me sometimes but I don't mind because I know your evil soul can't help it :) I seriously wish we were in the same dorm just so I could see your beautiful face everyday but alas, we can't always get what we want. I better be in your senior page :3
Alasdaire: Okay, real talk, you may be one of the most beautiful human beings I have ever laid eyes on. And that's coming from my super gay side. That being said, you are so sweet to me, sometimes I feel like I don't even deserve your kindness. I could not survive Euro without you, so thank you.
Grace B: I said it freshman year and I stand by it now, you have to be one of the most entertaining people I have ever met. Your constant IDGAF syndrome makes life feel more okay. I could listen to your nerdy biology talks for hours and anyone who dares underestimate your intelligence is a dildo. Please don't ever change.
MegMeg: Thank you for being so kind and for enduring all of Bray Bray's crazy with me. No one will understand the pain like you and me do. Besides, we're kinda the same person, aren't we? XD
Mark: It was an honor acting beside you this fall. You made a lovely husband <3
Young Thuggin': Addison, the day something normal comes out of your mouth will be the day the world turns upside down. Please continue enjoying your communist pizza til the end of time.
Sozanski: You little adorable piece of nerd UGH. As annoying as your know-it-all tendencies may be sometimes, I think we all appreciate the fact that you're literally a walking Encyclopedia. You've grown a lot in the past year but please know I consider you my lil baby child, okay?
Annie: You are kind of bizarre but I couldn't have asked for a better daughter (sorry Amanda). Continue doing your little adorable fairy thing. It suits you.
Marcel: As hard as you try, I'm never gonna date you but I appreciate your determination. Also, watching you try to make Conor jealous is kinda hilarious...
Mr. McCarthy: You seriously do not give a shit, do you? I don't think I could ever ask for a better advisor. Thank you for being a real homie.
Mrs. Bonin: Please don't hate me for not doing my last assignment :) I still love you.
Dr. Bonin: I AM BEGGING YOU PLEASE MAKE SURE I GET INTO COLLEGE PLEASEEE
Ms. Smith: As always, thanks for letting me date your son :) That being said, it's so much fun when we gang up on him (even tho he hates it) and thank you SO much for your infinite generosity. Btw, you're an excellent cook!
Eddie Redmayne: You are SUCH A DUCKING CINNAMON ROLL I COULD EAT YOU UP.
J.K. Rowling: Someday, I hope to be just like you.
Zoe Sugg and Tyler Oakley: As always, thank you for bringing levity to dire situations.
Cinnamon: You precious little kitty cat, I adore you.
Bernie Sanders: It should've been you <3
Mis angeles: No me abandonen, por favor.
Dios mio: Dame fuerza. Dame esperanza. Te necesito, Señor. Dame fe.
Hasta la próxima,
Much love xoxo
Maya
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