A Dream and A Drive

Hey y'all.

Funnily enough, even though it's sneaking into 6am, I have not yet gone to bed. Some nights you just gotta do what you gotta do. In my case, this was to knit an entire scarf whilst editing my best friend's college paper and simultaneously catching up on my youtube watch later list.

Anyway, now that my hands are completely worn out from knitting and typing away, I thought I'd tire them some more by writing this post. Not a long one, don't worry. Just long enough for me to get some thoughts out.

Believe it or not, almost half of my watch later videos consisted of dance choreographies and interviews with artists (the other half consisting of Noah Centineo but like that's not important.) Among them, I watched two of the greats, Lady Gaga and Lin Manuel Miranda, interview each other. It was glorious if you must know. But their whole conversation got me thinking about my passions and my cravings and my desires and my ambitions and how on earth I plan on achieving them.

So far, I got nuthin'. But hey, at one point, neither did they. They just had a dream and a drive to go on. I'm hoping that's enough. For now, at least. There are so many fields I want to explore, so many things I've yet to discover, so many people I long to meet and they're all at my fingertips. I just gotta reach out and go.

It got me thinking about "Hey, what if I just wrote my own musical?" or "Maybe I could just write my own song?" or "I could write a whole book series on that!" and guys, there are just endless possibilities pouring out into the universe and I need to stop thinking about the stream and just dive right in. Who cares if I've got a few choppy edges to begin with? I've got time to smooth them down.

God it's just that there are so many stories to tell and so many ways to tell them, through music, through words, through dance, through color, through film... I want to be a part of all of it. I wanna catch a creative wind and ride it for as long as I can. Or try to anyway. I know I'm rambling but there's no one up to listen to me yet lol

I've got ideas guys. Plans. Flawed plans, but plans nonetheless. I wanna create. I want to move people. Make them really feel something. Put my heart all out there and dare someone to stab it. (okay sorry that was way darker than i intended carry on) I just want a way to put all the pain and heartache and trauma into a tangible thing, hopefully a cathartic thing that can help others too.

Anyway. That's enough of me for one night. I hope you're all resting peacefully and that you wake up with hope in your eyes.

Hasta la próxima,

Much love xoxo

Maya