Happy Valentine's Day

Hey guys.

It's that sickening time of year again where obesity and flower allergies make their appearance. That's right, Happy Valentine's Day! I'd love to be one of those who is, I don't know... indifferent to this supposed joke of a holiday, but unfortunately, I somewhat despise it. Don't particularly know why. Quick shoutout to Claire for making it a million times more endurable (we've been sitting on my bed for the past two hours, telling stories and stuffing our faces with candy).

Anywho, I decided to be the obnoxious, single friend who writes cheesy messages to the rest of my crew. Hopefully, you know who you are. If not, feel free to message me if you have any questions :)

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You called me at midnight (even though I told you not to) and serenaded me with the classics (Uptown Funk, Rude, American Pie, Piano Man, just to name a few...) while doing your laundry. This continued up until about two AM, when I'd finally stopped hyperventilating from anxiety. You're always scolding me for swearing and telling me the dumb crap you do so I don't repeat it. You texted me for three hours on a school night just to tell me that I was worth it--just to remind me that I did, in fact, matter. You're never here and I miss you like hell but I somehow feel like you're closer than you are. Funny how these things work. Friends don't really get any better than that.

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You texted me out of the blue and the message was simple. All you said was "Hope you have a great day!" but it's little things like that that make my day so much brighter. Thank you.

P.S.: Your snapchats give me life.

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You care. In your own, little ways, you care. Whether it's high fives, or sticking your tongue out at me, or ruffling my hair, or wrapping me in a hug, or giving me one of those looks, you always care. And even though you never text back (-_-) you're always worrying about me. And that means more than you know.

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You've listened to countless rants. You've slapped me for apologizing for my rants. You rant back to me. This is how we work. And it's honestly the only way I breathe these days. You tell me your stories in detail and you're the only one to really listen to all of mine, too, and you never miss the opportunity for a hug and they're magical, I tell you. I care about it way too much when you're upset, and I know it's the same vice versa. Thank you for existing. Sincerely.

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We don't talk as much as I wish we did, but you're an older brother. You get how it works. You know what to say. You're honest and sometimes, just sometimes, a little too honest but hey--at least you're knocking some sense into me. You tease me to no end but I pester right on back, so for the most part, I'd say we're even :)

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I know everything's been super busy lately, so we don't talk as much, but I still think about you every day. Not a day goes by where I don't think, "Oh, she totally would've laughed at that," or "She would've completely appreciated that reference." Whether you know it or not, I look up to you. Like a lot. And you're so freaking talented that sometimes, it's not fair but I can live with it because it's you. And you're perfect. So it's okay.

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You were the one and only person I thought could help fix my song. And you did. And we only ever recorded it once but it was so perfect, and I hope to God that you get better for Spring Term. Not only because you'd be so much happier but everything in general would be better. You lighten up the mood no matter what; in your own way, of course, but at least it's done.

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We've been in an odd sort of rollercoaster for the past few months and no joke, sometimes I feel like the best thing in the world would be to jump off, but then I'd miss the rest of the excitement. And then I'd miss you. I already do. But I'm willing to believe it's just because things are crazy out of control right now, and I'm sincerely hoping that we manage to maintain some sort of relationship in the months to come.

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You've always been able to put a smile on my face. You don't even try; I don't get how you do it. Your funny imitations, your stories, your facial expressions... They're all so fun to watch. Plus, I will admit, you make dresscode attire look pretty darn snazzy. You rock those bowties.

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It's been a while since I've seen you, but somehow, it feels like you never even left. It was so normal seeing you the other day, yet it was so weird. So much has changed, and yet you still manage to be Queen of All. Because you're you, that's why.

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And there you have it. Thank you all. For just being you.

There are so many more I'd love to add but my eyes have decided to take a very long nap right now, so I'm gonna head out before I fall asleep on any of you (yes, I am insulting you all in your pillow-being abilities.)

Hasta la proxima!

Much love xoxo

Maya 

(P.S.: I'll probably edit this when I'm actually awake)