Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Because #ThugLyfe Part Two: The Woods

As promised, here is the second part to my distinctly absurd dream.

Enjoy.
..........

I don't know if you've ever tried taking in your surroundings when you're encompassed by constantly flashing scenery but just for the record--it's pretty fuckin' hard. Not to mention nauseating.

Although, just to give you some vague sense of environment, the gang train--otherwise known as Toothless (after the Night Fury in How to Train Your Dragon)--probably travelled at the speed of light, but it was just slow enough to give its next victims a scare. It didn't have walls--only poles to hold onto--plus a floor, a roof, and the occasional stone-cold bench. Pretty stable if you ask me... Apparently, the purpose of this was to show the public that we weren't afraid of displaying ourselves—that we got a kick out of causing them terror. 

Siiiick.

I figured it was nearing 2am--not one light in sight, 'cept maybe the singular crackling bulb that hung loosely from the train's ceiling, giving off a dim yellow glow. 


According to Tom, we were headed straight for The Cave. In case you were wondering, The Cave isn't actually a cave--it's a tree, but it goes by The Cave. 

Makes total sense.

"How much longer?" I sighed from my spot on the ground.


"Patience, child, patience," Maeve teased knowingly.


I watched as she grabbed onto a pole near the edge of our car, emerald eyes flickering back and forth to the pitch black darkness of the sky.


I noticed how the continuous rocking of the train made her vibrant red hair bounce in its ponytail, tumbling over her shoulder onto a blood red flannel; dark black boots dug their heels into the ground so as to keep their balance, barely hiding the hilt of Maeve's infamous machete.


Emma hiccupped from the bench to my right; wild mane covering her red lipstick and the large green bottle in her hands.


She was wasted.


Brandt, in turn, sat next to her dressed in a dashing black suit, of course, because why wouldn't he?
“I think we’ve got about five more minutes to go,” he said, eyeing his watch before letting his gaze rest on me.

I sighed again.

I sure could go for some ice cream right about now.

The trap door by my foot gave a jerk, so I moved out of the way only to have Sawyer’s fist punch right through the wooden slabs, revealing the three people below.

“Sawyerrr! I told you to stop doing thattt...” Gibb pouted, letting tufts of curls fall into his eyes as he followed the others out of the hidden compartment. 

“And I told you not to get in the way,” was her simple retort.

Claire and Sawyer stood up swiftly, dusting themselves off in seemingly effortless badass-ery. 

Adjusting the bandana atop her head, Claire suggested we start calling in the others to jump.

As I mentioned before, Toothless never stopped. Not for us or for anybody. 

"Zomo! Come on, we gotta go," Tom shouted over his shoulder as he jogged down the stairs followed by T, C, Fonts and Max. 

"I know, I know! I'll be right down!" was her fleeting reply.

We heard a quick pitter-pattering of steps before Zoe tumbled down the stairs, tugging her leather coat back on in a hurry.

"We almost there?" Sawyer flicked a purple strand of hair out of her face while looking to Fonts who stood planted by the northern pole (no pun intended--I swear).

"Yeah, just after this next turn," Fonts trailed off, looking ahead as a captain would in his ship.

I watched as everyone (minus Brandt) started to back up to the rear of the car.

Taking note of my perplexed expression, C waved me over. I took a few uneasy steps towards him before he grabbed a hold of my shoulder, looked down, eyebrows raised, and asked, "You ready to jump on your own, kiddo?"

"Um..."

"Here, I'll go with you," Maeve winked, offering a small smile my way.

"See you guys on the flip side," Brandt smirked, straightening his blazer before standing up to get out of our way.

"We'll catch you later, kay, man?" 

I'd been told Brandt had to stay; he'd get off somewhere else because his job was to make sure we never got caught. His job was to relocate us if The Cave's location ever leaked. Therefore, Brandt was always on the run.

"For fuck's sake, someone grab hold of Emma," Fonts rolled his eyes, exasperated.

T sighed before making his way to her, clutching one arm in one hand and the green bottle in the other, chucking it to the empty blackness flashing past the train.

"Okay, three... two..." 

I became hyper aware of everything around me, especially the moment Tom got to one.

Quicker than wind, each one of them jumped; first Fonts, then C, then Gibb and Sawyer, then Max, then Claire, then T with a disoriented Emma, then Tom and Zoe, and finally Maeve and I.

I remember her squeezing my hand in order for me to get ready.

Holy shit, I'm really doing this, aren't I?

I remember picking up speed as we dashed past Brandt; I remember the moment my foot left the edge of the car--the second my insides turned to absolute mush.

I swear to God, if I don't come out alive--

And then there was the ground. I mean pure forest ground.

Ow.

One by one, I heard the thuds of denim and leather hit the dirt beneath us.

Mostly everyone managed to tuck and roll into a graceful stop, followed by standing up swiftly and dusting themselves off. Everyone minus Emma and myself, that is. 

Emma lay in some sort of heap by Tiernan's feet, giggling and hiccuping to herself as she brushed the wild mane out of her eyes.

"C'mon, Em, up you go," 

Claire bent down to grab both of Emma's hands, pulling her to her feet and adjusting the trench coat that was falling off her shoulders.

Meanwhile, I sorta kinda maybe possibly may have landed on my face.

Thankfully, it was too dark for anyone to really notice... heh heh... heh... heh.

It took a few minutes before my eyes adjusted to the darkness. I looked around and the longer I looked, the more confused I was as to where we were.

"Um, guys...?" I spoke timidly.

"'Sup, short stuff?" Fonts turned around to address me.

"Uh... is this The Cave...?" I wondered.

I mean, we were kinda in the middle of nowhere...

"Pfffttt yeahhhh no—we’ve still got about five miles to go, Maya," Gibb laughed, sticking his tongue out at me.

Great.

"Onwards and upwards, bitches," were Fonts's words of encouragement as we trudged through the pitch-black woods.
..........

I must've bumped into about twenty trees within the first ten minutes of our hike before Max huffed in annoyance.

"Claire?"

"Yeah?"

"Flashlight," the blue-haired boss commanded, waiting a few moments as Claire fished through the pockets of Emma's trench coat, pulling out a flashlight.

Claire chucked it to Max, who threw it to me, and we all know I can't catch for shit.

No, it didn't hit my face. I deflected it just in time, thank you very much.

"Nice catch," Sawyer teased, poking me in the side.

"Ha ha, very funny," I rolled my eyes, picking up the small device and switching it on, only to squint at the tiny bright light that protruded from it.

"Haha! Maya's blind!" Tiernan singsonged.

I flashed the light in his eyes for good measure.

It took about ten seconds of awkward silence before C started humming the Pink Panther theme song under his breath, pretending to walk around in the dark stealthily.

It took about ten seconds more before the rest of us caught on.

"Do doo... do doo... do doo, do doo, do doo, do doo, do dooooooooooo..."

Some gangsters they are.
……….

I hated to pull the whiny card, but it was nearing 4am now and my feet hurt and I was tired and hungry and wanted to figure out what this damn Cave thing was.

“Are we there yet?” I grumbled, picking my feet up as if they were anchors, letting the weight of my red converse drag me down.

“Oh, no—we actually passed it a few miles back; we just felt the need to keep walking,” Caellum poked, casually scratching his goatee.

I threw him a glare in the dark. 

“C, stop being a dick,” was Tom’s playful retort in my defense.

Thanks Tom.

“I’m just messing with her, Jesus,” C pretended to be highly offended, slapping a hand to his chest.

“All right, settle down, ladies; you’re both pretty,” Max smirked, throwing each of them a punch before going back to leading the way.

Maeve rolled her eyes, and then looked to me.

“Two more miles, sweetheart,” she laughed, patting me on the back sympathetically as I huffed.

“W-We should… we shouldd jusst toootallyy go caaamping right now!” was the first thing I heard Emma say all night.

She raised her arm in the air triumphantly—I don’t know what for—but it clearly made her feel victorious when she started chanting really loud camp songs.

"C-A-M-P-F-I-R-E S-O-N-G song! C-A-M-P-F-I-R-E S-O-N-G song! And if you don't think that we can sing it faster then you're wrong! But it'll help if you sing alonggggg!!!!"

“Emma, stop. You’re intoxicated. Literally, what the fuck are you doing?” Fonts just shook his head. 

He didn’t even seem the slightest bit surprised at this behavior.

When the hell did Emma become an alcoholic?

Emma, in turn, shushed him quite dramatically before resuming her campfire song.

“Em,” Zoe let go of Tom’s arm, “Shh, it’s quiet time now, come on,” she urged her sister to walk with her, taking hold of her arm, practically tugging her along as we made our way over some enormous roots.

It was then that we heard the first snap.

Almost instinctively, everyone’s ears—including Emma’s—perked up.

We stopped.

Nobody. Breathe.

I watched as the atmosphere dropped to a dangerous mood.

Eyes narrowed to slits and hands started moving towards coat pockets and pant pockets and boot buckles and waistbands.

The moment I saw Gibb pull out a revolver, I was scared shitless.

Damn, my friends are murderers. I forgot that minor detail.

I watched as Claire let loose the flannel tied at her waist, revealing an assortment of knives tucked into her belt.

Sawyer pulled open her leather jacket, taking out the sharpest of a large collection of daggers.

Maeve pulled out her foot-long machete, waiting for the next sign of attack.

Max retrieved something that looked like a whip lined with barbed wire.

Jesus Christ, that thing was scary.

The guys drew a variety of guns out of hoodies, jackets, jeans, and boots.

That left Zoe, Emma and I unarmed. 

Well,  fuck.

I noticed how everyone’s attention was fixed on Fonts despite the fact that glances were darting everywhere.

His eyes were dark and determined, feet set steadily in a stance that allowed him to move quickly, if necessary.

Another snap.

Weapons were aimed.

I could feel everyone’s breathing match mine and I could almost see the gears switching in their heads.

This was not a game. This was real life.

I felt T tug on my sweater so I stepped half an inch closer.

Another snap. A gunshot. A howl.

It all happened so quickly that it took several moments to register the enormous coyote dead at Tom's feet.

My heart caught in my throat as I stared at the wildly majestic creature, then trailed to Tom's face and I somehow just noticed the old scar that cut across his eyebrow and it all clicked.

"Okay, guys, that was a close call--Thanks man," Fonts nodded towards the redhead, giving him a look of respect.

"We should get going," Max stated, eyeing the dead coyote.

I think pure adrenaline was the only thing that let me walk, or in this case run, any faster.

Unfortunately, no amount of adrenaline will ever make up what I lack in height, so I was slowing down the rest significantly.

It didn't take long for T to say, "Hop on," so with no amount of pride left, I accepted the piggy-back ride that would carry me to our fateful destination.

..........

I can't remember the moment I was let down, but I remember looking up to see something resembling a giant fortress.

"Home, sweet home," Gibb sighed in fake admiration, gesturing towards the treehouse built atop four ridiculously large oak trees.

The trees stood like pillars, forming part of the magnificent structure.

"Welcome to The Cave, little one," C ruffled my hair, causing me to put what little energy I had left into a weak huff of disapproval.

"Awesome possum," I yawned, lifting a hand to rub the sleepiness out of my eyes.

"Aww, is it past someone's bed time?" Fonts sneered patronizingly. 

I flipped him the bird, not even bothering to throw another glare.

"Knock it off, Fonts," Sawyer rolled her eyes, making her way over to me.

"Let's get you to bed, love," she said.

I tried to protest but the next thing I remember is being curled up in a corner, a flimsy blanket thrown over me, and the silent whooshing of the breeze outside.

..........

There goes a lame attempt at Part Two.

Emma, I am so so sorry. I honestly could not tell you why my subconscious chose to make you a raging alcoholic. Please don't hate me.

As for the rest of you goobers, I hope you enjoyed and please pester me to write the next part because without your motivation, I wouldn't... Teehee.

Hasta la próxima,

Much love xoxo

Maya

Sunday, January 25, 2015

Because #ThugLyfe Part One: Initiation

Okay, cool. Now that I've grabbed your attention and got you all mildly concerned, I might as well go on and elaborate a bit...

Just a few days ago, I seem to have had a very vivid dream in which The One and Only Crew was part of a gang.

I know. It gets weirder.

Now comes the part where I warn you all  that this is, in fact, a dream that I had, so I will try and relay every detail as closely as I possibly can. There are facts that are incorrect and details that are different in real life--I know that. I also apologize in advance for the questionable thoughts of my subconscious and hope you bear with me through my queer imagination. I'm sorry if I offend any of you--That is not the intention. 

Again, I'm very aware that my dream interpretation of a gang is very, very off, so no snarky comments about that -_-

Onwards, my friends. 
..........
Fonts. 23. Designated Leader.
Tom. 22. Second in Command.
Tiernan. 22. Mission Tactics.
Brandt. 22. Paper Boss.
Maeve. 22. Master in Combat. 
Max. 21. Secret Weapon.
Caellum. 21. Spy.
Gibb. 22. Hit Man.
Claire. 21. Master Long Shots.
Sawyer. 20. Master Close Cuts.
Emma. 21. Master Manipulator. 
Zoe. 21. Poison Master.
Maya. 15. Weapon Efficiency.

I'm pretty sure none of these terms make sense at the moment. I'm hoping they will in time. No clue why the age gap turned out the way it did. But nonetheless, here we go.
..........
There was a knock on my window. 

Who the hell is up at four in the morning?

There it was again. This time, louder.

And again. It was urgent.

Okay, this is getting weird. Don't you move, Maya. Don't be stupid. Don't go and look.

Thinking it was some asshole prankster from school, I got up to go and flip them off, only to have my heart stop at the two, very large figures perched on my windowsill. 

Jesus Christ, Maya--This is it. You're gonna die. 

"Dude, stop pushing me off," whined the silhouette on the right.

"Goddammit, Maya, just open the window," came a deeper, muffled voice I recognized almost immediately.

I did a double take. 

"Fonts?"

"Yeah, genius, now open the damn window before O' Rourke here falls on his ass," he said.

I immediately took to unlatching the lock, watching them both swing one leg over at a time.

Before I knew it, the one and only Fonts and Tom were towering a good foot and a half above me. Some things never change.

However, something was different about their eyes, or maybe the way they stood, or their clothes, or their hair, or their beards, or God why does something seem so off?

"Long time, no see, kiddo," Tom's bearded face smiled down at me.

If I were actually conscious, I'd probably go hug the life outta them, but seeing as it was 4am, I had only one thing on my mind.

"What the hell are you two doing here so early?" I grumbled, rubbing the sleep out of my eyes.

"Hey, now, that's not the way to greet your best buds after three years, is it?" Fonts teased, lips curled up in a smirk.

It hadn't really hit me that the last time I saw these guys was at my seventh grade graduation.

I smiled a bit as I regained my senses and started to notice the peculiar alertness behind their eyes and their calloused fingers and their stained, dark wash jeans and the foreign scars littering their hands and faces.

They seemed to recognize my new discoveries and Tom looked to Fonts with a sigh before walking towards my bedroom door, leaning against it with a stony expression.

"You might wanna sit down for this, kid," he added in unfamiliar monotone.

Giving each a questioning look, I flopped back down on my bed, pulling my flannel-clad self into a ball while asking what was going on.

"Maya, we uh... We actually came here to tell you that we're in a gang," 

Well that's something you don't hear every day.

Fonts searched my eyes as it took me a second to register.

Waiting for the punchline, I remained silent. 

After a few more awkwardly exchanged glances from Fonts to Tom and back, I presumed they were serious.

"Wait, you're in a fucking what?!" I probably shrieked, jumping up on my feet.

It took Tom less than two seconds to fly across the room, slapping a hand over my mouth in case I exploded again. 

I gave him a glare to back off, which he did, this time lowering my voice but not my urgency.

"Why are you in a gang? Who the heck--? Why did you--? How are you in a gang?" I whisper-yelled, staring them down with a fiery gaze.

"Maya, first off, you better be quiet before the entire neighborhood hears you, " Fonts's stern glare remained threatening for the rest of his spiel, "Second of all, I formed it two years ago to get back at some assholes who didn't know their place. Because of that, I needed some help, so I got Tom to join and Tom got Gibb, T and C to join, and they got Maeve, Max, Claire, Sawyer, and the Butlers to join, and they got Brandt to join and now here we are with you,"

I blinked so as not to explode in aggressive accusation again.

"Why are you telling me this?" I let the words tumble out of my mouth before I said something worse.

"We're asking you to join," Fonts said flat out. 

Tom gave him a look of annoyance and looked ready to slap him upside the head for not having phrased it more persuasively. 

Again, some things never change.

Whatever words I planned to say next got caught in my throat.

Oh dear.
..........

I still can't remember how they got me to say yes, but it was 4am, and they seemed desperate, and I missed them. So it happened.

They explained how they first had to test if I was "gang worthy", whatever that means... Which involved running away from home, and being able to time it out perfectly with jumping onto their "gang train".

Yes. Gang train. They owned a flipping gang train.

(Think train from Divergent. Never stops. Except this one had no walls, but three levels plus a secret compartment at the bottom, and it was freaking dangerous as all heck. But hey, that's part of the thrill, apparently.)

*excuse the plot holes in this story, but what can I say--this is a dream. things change pretty darn quickly and apparently I had never noticed their gang train before, despite the fact that it ran through my entire neighborhood*

Either way, it was a Saturday night--the night they'd designated for me to run away--and I was near pissing my pants from anxiety.

Fonts explained that if I went through with this, there was no turning back. 

The gang was a lifestyle, not a game.

He also happened to mention that if I failed test A (the running away), that I would have to face test B: being thrown in front of the never-stopping gang train and being clever enough to find a way out before it dragged me to my untimely death.

How welcoming.

Nonetheless, I sat nervously on my windowsill, wringing my hands over and over, regretting my decision more and more every second.

Maya, what are you doing? You can't be in a gang! What the hell are you thinking?

I wasn't even going to be able to say goodbye to my parents--No. They were a part of my old life. Not this one. Not the new one. Not whatever pertained to this "gang" life.

I was having second thoughts--possibly third, fourth and fifth thoughts, too--when I heard the distant chugging of wheels and manic laughter. 

Oh no. You're really doing this, huh?

Everyone in my neighborhood knew to book it back to their house whenever they heard the gang train approaching. These guys, yeah--they were dangerous. These guys also happen to be my best friends. Why? I have no clue why. Maybe 'cause they'd known me since I was nine years old, but hey, people change.

I could've sworn I heard a gunshot and a scream followed by laughter mingle with the constant turning of rusty wheels.

Here I go.

No one else was out at this time of night--especially not if they heard the gang train coming--meaning there's no way I'd be caught running away with them.

They were scary. They were dangerous. But they were my friends. And I could see more and more of their unrecognizable features as the train drew nearer and nearer.


A leather jacket. A bandana.
A purple streak. A tattoo.
A machete. A gun.
A piercing. A trench coat.
A hoodie. A scar.
A dagger. A ring.

Closer and closer and closer until I could see the faces of friends I hadn't seen in over three years and then I jumped.

I did it. I jumped from my window sill to the roof of the train with no walls.

Heart leaping and adrenaline pumping, I shut my eyes closed and clung to the roof of the car as if my life depended on it--which it did.

Below, I could hear the wolf-whistling and cheers and clapping of my friends, who knew me all too well and figured I'd pissed my pants by this point. I hadn't, just FYI.

"Need a hand?" chuckled a voice I hadn't heard in quite some time.

I peeped one eye open to look at whoever was perched on the metal pole just beneath me.

"Yes please," I squeaked, offering Tiernan a forced smile as he pried my fingers off the edges of the roof, swiftly grabbing my waist before setting me down.

"You okay, kid?" he laughed, also looking down at me.

He'd gotten taller.

I grabbed onto the pole he was previously perched on as the train gave a lurch, holding my breath and giving a slight nod.

Several seconds passed and I still hadn't exhaled.

"You can breathe, now. It's not against the rules," quipped a female voice this time.

I turned around only to be faced by the legendary Maximiliana. Blue hair and all.

"Max?!" I finally breathed, letting go of the pole for a split second in order to attack her in a hug.

"Whoa! Hey, this isn't the afterlife, Maya; you can relax," she stated, hesitantly hugging me back, although I knew she wasn't entirely reluctant--the sparkle in her eyes gave it away.

"Right. Sorry--" I muttered, baring a small smile as I pulled away.

She looked different. So did T. In fact, they looked fantastic. 

Well... I guess that's one way you could put it.

T had a full beard (as did Tom and Fonts since I last saw them), a jagged scar that trailed from his jawbone down to perhaps his clavicle, and he sported an assortment of layers all underneath a hoodie and a Snapback--not too different from what I remember seeing him wear a couple years before. Except this time, I caught subtle glimmers of black handles and shiny metal laced with his pockets and belt buckles.

He was definitely armed. 

Oh dear.

Max, on the other hand, had her bright blue hair pulled back in a braid, showing two new piercings on her right ear; wore tightly fitted leather pants, tall black boots (which I'm sure were filled with all sorts of surprises), a black tank top underneath a dark flannel, and displayed an eye-catching dragon tattoo that intertwined itself all the way down her forearm. 

I'm pretty sure she was armed, too.

"Well, if it isn't my favorite little hobbit," 

I swerved on the spot to be face to face, or should I say face-to-stomach, with none other than Caellum. Of course.

"Oh. Hey, C," I replied, not quite able to find my voice yet.

I was beginning to sway from the quick pace of the train and the uneasiness that weapons brought to my stomach. Possibly, also, the smell of booze and dried blood.

"Whoa, you sure you're okay?" T grabbed a hold of my shoulder in attempts to steady me, looking at me under worried eyes.

"Yeah," I breathed, "Peachy," I lied.

"Let's get you downstairs so the rest can congratulate you," Max winked, turning around and making her way down to the second level of the train, bright blue braid trailing after her.

"Good job, kid. You're gonna have fun, I promise," C assured me with a smile before following after Max.

T gave me a knowing look that almost said Well? What are you waiting for?

I gulped as quietly as I possibly could before taking a tentative step forward, not yet used to the speeding train beneath me. 

I'm pretty sure Tiernan sensed my uneasiness at pretty much everything going on, so he sighed before taking my hand and promising there'd be ice cream later.

..........

And there you have it friends. Part One of Because #ThugLyfe (thank you Sawyer for that title inspiration XD)

I'm planning to make this a sort of mini series because there's no way I could fit it all in one post... Please don't hate me.

But yeah, if you're wondering roughly, and I mean roughly what the characters style is sorta like in this story, think Greasers from The Outsiders.

Other than that, I hope you enjoyed :)

Can't wait to write the next bit.

Hasta la próxima,

Much love xoxo

Maya

Monday, January 19, 2015

Keeping You In The Loop

Hiya lovely creatures!

I will admit, a lot's been going on lately---quite sorry for the angsty, typical teenager posts as of late---but I thought I might as well let you in on the short version of what's been up.

Okay, fine, you got me--I know this won't be short--but let's just pretend for a sec, shall we?

Also, Claire, I sincerely apologize for sorta copying your latest post idea...Teehee :)

Without further ado:

  1. Coming back to school after the end of break was harder than I thought. I had to pretend like it didn't hurt when Javier waved goodbye. Next time I see you, buddy, you'll be double digits. You just wait.
  2. A blurry week came and went, full of stress, panic attacks and sleep deprivation.
  3. Fonts went back to college.
  4. Next came C's dandy 17th birthday where the entire cast of Ghost managed to plug through a 4 hour dance rehearsal, making a toast with some cupcakes before Mr. Kerr blasted EON's "Seventeen". We all sang along, of course. Later that night, Eric, Brandt, Tiernan, Claire, and I headed to Casa del Kerr to watch The Interview and to drink milkshakes in their awesome possum basement (Fonts also joined somewhere in the mix haha).
  5. Soon after came Gibb's 18th birthday. Dude, you're getting freaking old. Not okay. (As of right now, it's been three days since your birthday and I'm still working on your present. I'm so sorry, but you'll thank me later <3)
  6. Max sent me a text about shooting stars.
  7. Maeve dropped by a couple of times and they were very much needed visits because I super duper freaking missed her.
  8. Caellum's birthday present finally came in (waaaay after his birthday but shh) and his look of panic will forever be cherished in my memory as he unwrapped the paper. I gave him a stuffed animal goat. His name is Frank.
  9. Semi. That happened. In fact, many things happened, but we don't need to go there. Let's just cut to the part where I say thanks to Olivia for making me feel like a princess and thank you Rory for dancing with me even if it made you uncomfortable and thank you Maeve for showing up unexpectedly and thank you Sawyer for calming me down after anxiety happened and thank you Kai for dancing and making me have an awesome time and thank you Claire for jamming with me as promised and thank you Brandt for the pictures and Patrick for being my sassy gay bartender for the night and Sophia for looking like a goddess and Tom for showing up looking all spiff and dapper and Dan for having had the pleasure to make your acquaintance. You all looked lovely.
  10. School's been surprisingly average--meaning gross, but still. Could be worse.
  11. Today's been a pretty rockin fantastic day overall. Sure I was sleep deprived and sure I fell asleep in Geometry... and Humanities... and Chemistry... but besides that, Enharmonix rehearsal tonight really took off. I am so proud of each and every one of you. Thank you for letting me share your time and talent. Brandt, Sawyer and Claire helped T, Gibb, Mr. Kerr, Mr. Brett, and I to set up the stage whilst jamming to Uptown Funk. God, what a jam. And just as we finished a very productive rehearsal, Mr. Kerr blasted it again so we could strike the mics and goodness, I haven't had such a fun time in a while... Though simple, it's moments like that that stay forever embedded inside the nicer side of my memories.
  12. Berklee is next Saturday and every time I think about it, the more I wanna cry.
Fun funnn. So that's the vague wrap up of what's been going on :)

Hope you all had awesome possum days because you totally deserve it xoxo

Hasta la próxima,

Much love xoxo

Maya

Thursday, January 15, 2015

To My Dad

Hello magical people :)

I thought about it and decided I might as well post the other slam poem I wrote about my Dad, or Papi, as I call him.


..........


To My Dad

When I was little, my dad used to sprinkle fairy dust over my pillow because he said it would keep the nightmares away.
He said I had the power to turn the lights on even when they were off.
“Papi,” I’d say, “I don’t have special powers. Where can I find the ability to switch off everything that scares me and how do I keep it from consuming me?”
He told me how my name was magical—Maya means magical—and how all that power comes from an ancient magic called believing in yourself.
Papi, all throughout elementary school, you scribbled notes into my napkins, folded them like treasure maps before placing them carefully into my oversized purple lunchbox, so everyday at lunch, I was reminded of your voice.
Papi, I’m sorry I asked you to stop leaving notes in my lunchbox.
I’m sorry I called it lame.
In middle school, you watched me shrink from extrovert to introvert and yet you never ceased to beam whenever I stood up on stage.
When I messed up a line, you’d hug me and tell me how well I’d performed.
You endured every soap opera moment with godlike patience, letting me use your t-shirts as tissues.
When I failed my first test, you didn’t yell, you just told me to do my best the next time.
When I told you how much I hated myself, you didn’t freak out and send me to a mental hospital.
When I told you I might be bent, you didn’t argue and let it be.
When I told you I needed you, you didn’t leave.
Papi, I’m sorry. I took you for granted.
Papi, thank you.
Thank you for kissing every scrape, for drying every tear, for making every joke, for cooking every meal, for every attempt at braiding my hair, for accepting the fact that I am not an athlete.
I repeat—I am NOT an athlete.
Papi, I’m sorry I didn’t train harder.
I’m sorry I’m not as strong as you said I was.
I’m sorry I threw out the napkins; I’m sorry I pushed you away; for thinking I was too cool and for letting the magic fade.
You kept saying I should believe in myself and
Papi, I’m trying,
But I don’t know if we have any fairy dust left and I’ve already swiped all the memories from my pillow—not a single one is magical
And I don’t know how long it’ll be till the sun comes up in the morning, but
Papi, I miss you.
You asked me what I wanted for Christmas and God, what I’d give to have some of those magical powers, but I think I’ll just be wanting a nightlight instead.

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And there you have it folks. I have to say this piece holds a very special place in my heart, just as Papi does, and I thought it would be nice to share it with you all :)

I hope you've all had a fantabulous day!!!

Hasta la próxima,

Much love xoxo

Maya